I wish you could tell us more, that way we could help more. Just calm down. Suicide is never the right way to go. Trust me. Once you've tried to do it, you'll realize all those problems that you had could be solved.
Don't commit suicide. The people that do really love you won't know how to cope. Don't do it. It's the worst thing that could happen to you and to the people that truly care about you.
Trust me, things will get better. I can't understand why you can't trust anyone you love because you haven't told us more but I assure you that it's better than it seems.
Dieing will only make things worse. It won't get better if you do. The one most valuable thing I learned in my whole life is never quit, don't back down from a fight. Quotes from my role model, John Cena. He's gotten me through thoughts like ones you're having.
I really hope I've helped. If you need anything, anything at all, just message me
Yours truly,
-John Cena54