If you're going through the same thing as others and you're struggling then it's not the right time for you to try to help them. You're having a rough time dealing with this yourself and to be honest, even if you were to try to help anyone else you probably wouldn't be doing much good. If you did manage to help them you would just be hurting yourself more by avoiding your issues. Remember: Help yourself before you help others. I know that may sound selfish but for situations like these it goes.

Dealing with the death of someone close to you is very hard, I know. I can only imagine that dealing with a suicide is even worse. I can't say I can relate but I know you're hurting. Do you have family in which you can turn to at this time? You really need people around this time of year to lean on. Its been two years but things like these we don't just get over and forget. Have you seen a therapist? I know they don't sound great but it sounds like you're very emotionally and mentally unstable. You do need help even if you don't realize it. Whether you want to get help this way or reach out to someone close to you, it's up to you. Don't try to go through this alone though.

Cutting is not the solution to any of this. It's a coping mechanism that does not work. It may give you peace of mind whilst cutting but afterwards you still have your same problems and I know you have realized that by now. My suggestion is to find another way, a safer more productive way, to deal with your emotions. Find a hobby. If you like writing pour yourself into that when you feel the need to cut, etc.

I can tell you right now that your sister does not want you to be with her or at least not this way. You and I both know she would want you to live a full and happy life. She's passed away but she still wants what is best for you. Right now being with her is not a good thing for you. You still have much of life to experience. You do have things ahead of you and change will come. Life is rough at times but it can also be amazing. Time changes everything and you need to let it work it's magic in your life.

Have you seen a doctor about your ED? This a major thing that you need to get taken care of and get yourself back on the right track. I'm unsure of how old you are but if you're living on your own is there any way you could borrow money from some people? You need to eat more than one meal a day. Three square meals is what will keep you healthy. I understand you're self image might be bad but there are many ways to change the way you look besides not eating. This can cause major health issues later on in life that I'm positive you would not want to deal with. Again, having people there to lean you is what you need right now. Reaching out for help does not make you weak, it makes you strong, most people are unable to do that. Don't let this hold you back from having a happy life. Even if you can't see it now the future can only look brighter. Good luck.

Posted at 1:35 am on Nov. 4, 2009