" And I'm contemplating suicide(8)

There is a flaw in my character,

Not unlike the flaw in life,

Where blood spills from an open wound,

Guilt and honesty seep from my lips.

Unable to stem the flow it gushes out,

Widening and scarring the skin and muscle,

And the hope of ever stopping it fails.

And so I am even more flawed with my failure,

Stuck on a track of loving someone,

Who I cannot trust, cannot touch again.

While seemingly holding hands with no one.

I can only act to make this end,

Where in acting slashed my soul.

making this flaw that couses me,

myself,

to tear myself and reassemble the rend.

burn the medicated flesh to make me whole again.

~So Kayla broke up with me, and I fought it, fought the devasting feeling of knowing that I lost someone. someone I thought I could trust, who I thought would actually tell me things that worry them. I thought I could be there for her to lean on. and I drove her away.

So I let it go.

I let it all go like I knew I should, she left becouse I was a failure again, I screwed up in ways I can only imagine, and I could only do one thing but move on. And then I went to the fair. I found someone who I trusted, and I hoped again. then to find out that Kayla still liked me. Now we could have yelled at each other, broke down and cried and apoligized and laughed at the irony of it all. but we did something much crueler. We stood and faked smiles and acceptances like we were glad the other one was happy. And now I'm left with a decision, to go back to the girl who I barely trust, but have more foundation with. Or the girl who I trust, but have barely forged anything....

looks like I'v really cut my life into peices...(8) "

Kayla is the ex. I am the other girl. We have been going out since monday (known eachother for 2 years) , and i just dont know what to do. I have not brought it up to him, but i dont know if I should. he brakes up with me, i 'll say that i wont be a fall back girl and wait. not to be bitch just let him know that i really liked him for him. what should i do?

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"Showing your affection, when the villian is in your face is not easy. The Releaf is not recovery but knowing that you beat the odds."

How much do you really like him? Enough to support him right now?

He needs to support, what he's going through is hard, though it may just seem as though someone loves him, he loves them. But he doesn't trust her. He trusts you.

Trust is a huge issue in a relationship.

If he decides that he doesn't want to be with you, don't be the fall back girl, he may never fall back on you if he decides to trust her again.

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From a distance you look like my friend,

even though we are at war.