It's ok if it's long, the point is that you were able to have a good moan and vent about what's been bothering you. It's much much better to get it out somehow, whether that be making a post on LiveWire, or venting to someone, or anything, but make sure you keep letting all that stress you're having out in some way. It's so hard when you go to a new school where you don't know anyone. It's so so difficult, because you feel like people there already know each other, and it's just a terribly difficult thing, changing schools. But, the thing is, you do have your old friends to help and support you through this. If you're missing them, call them, make plans to get together and see each other. I know how school is normally the place where you would have seen them most, but try to spend a lot of time on the weekend and stuff. I know it's really hard right now, not getting to see as much of them as you want, but it's really important to keep up contact with them.
You're saying that you're going to become withdrawn, but you need to tell your friends this, and make sure that they will be able to help you come out of your withdrawn-ness a little by making you get out on weekends. Let them help you, yes, they have their own lives, but I'm sure they care so much about you, and just because you're going to a different school now doesn't mean that they still won't be able to support you and be there for you. You're not a let down, not at all. It's not your fault that you had to go to a different school, and I'm sure that your friends don't think that you're a let down at all. They are missing you just as much as you miss them, and I'm sure that they wouldn't want you to not tell them what's going on with you because you feel like you are a let down. Just try to let them help you as much as possible.
At the same time, try not to depend on your old friends entirely. You say that you hang out with a group of girls who you don't really like; a lot of people do this when they don't have other friends, so try and branch out. You say that no one at school talks to you or seems to want to, but maybe it's because they find you intimidating, or really want to talk to you but don't have the guts to go up to a completely new person. Maybe just find some people your own age/in your grade and sit with them at lunch one day; chances are they won't turn you down. Or maybe ask someone for the homework and try to turn it into a conversation. Just think of ways to interact with people; joining a school sport of club is another great way to meet people. Or, you could try going to a place where a lot of people from your school hang out often, like the movies or a popular mall that people go on weekends. There's loads of ways to meet people, you just need to get out and do it.
People do want you, they really do. Your friends obviously care about you so much; getting stoned or going out and sleeping with people isn't going to make you feel wanted, it's just going to make you feel cheap and give you a reputation as someone who is easy. There are other ways to make yourself feel ok, healthy ones, that you can do instead of turning to drugs, or having sex with random people. I promise you that you'll regret doing that later in life if you do go out and sleep with random people just to feel wanted.
You are not a dumb-ass, and while your brother does very well in school, you can't measure yourself against him. Yes, he does well and your parents are proud of him, but you're not your brother, and it's unfair for your parents to try and get you to measure up to him. Have you tried talking to your parents about your school and how much you hate it? If you're really really unhappy there, then you should tell your parents and maybe switch schools. Also, is there anyone you can talk to at your school about how you're not liking it, like a guidance counselor or someone like that? They'd be able to give you more ways on how to make friends and try to fit in a little bit more; they'd probably also help give you advice on how to feel better about yourself, and how to keep yourself from slipping back into a depression.
The main thing is to keep talking to people about how you feel; let your friends know how you're feeling, and try to find a guidance counselor at school who you can talk to and vent about how you're feeling.
Best wishes, I hope things work out for you.
Post edited at 6:52 pm on Sep. 24, 2006 by dovelove
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