A girl I've been talking to for a little bit now (Ashley) got in a serious car accident Friday morning.  She was driving from her place in North Port (in FL) out to Bradenton to go grab her friends some breakfast.  It was rainy and some prick just had to run the red light and T-Bone her........to make it worse, this guy also ditched his car and bolted from the scene.....

She was left with some busted ribs, a cracked skull and some bad internal bleeding.

Between Friday and today she's been through 5 operations......the first 4 helped to prevent further damage, but drained her to a critically low point.

During this last one tonight, her heart actually stopped during the operation, but the docs were able to fix it.......she's on a ventilator though and is too weak to breathe for herself.  The docs are saying she prolly won't make it through the night.

The realtionship between me and Ashley would take to long to explain believe me, but we're close enough that this whole thing not only affects her, but really throws me for a good one too.........

Every doctors update is morbid......everything they say make her out to be two steps away from death.  They may get used to that, but I sure as hell can't......  

One of her friends has her phone and him & I text back and forth alot when she's awake.....I also talk to her to.....but in her condition it's usually just me telling her to stay strong, not give up, keep fighting and other personal words of encouragement there.

It's so hard though, because when she's in pain, she's always shaking & crying and I just want to be able to hold her or something....but I can't, because she's down there and I'm up here (@ school in Lincoln, NE....where she's thinkin of coming next yr)

My whole weekend, I've though about nothing else but her, mostly because of all of those scares/sugeries........with a somewhat busy week coming up (plus my Birthday on Wed. 2/7......)........I would like to think that she'll be alright now and won't have any relapses or go off and die on me......but there's so much uncertainty there, it's just killing me!

Her friend says she loves me too much to leave me likt this and that if she wanted to give up & go, she would've already......that's the kind of attitude I have most of the time, but then something happens and I get a call early in the morning and that tears everything up and I just can't keep up with this..........

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:cool: ~ Ben

The driver is one of a friend of mine he was a bit brused and he feels like shit, another passager who I know broke his jaw and stuff but it's so fucking weird  how people just...die it's like you won't see them again

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During the evening of 2/5......she finally stabilized, her heart aided by a pacemaker.  She got off the ventillator and the whole week, continued to improve.

Late Thursday night (2/15)/early Friday morning (2/16), she suffered a setback though......her pacemaker failed and the dumbass docs didn't catch it until nearly 8hrs later......they did another operation and presumably either fixed or replaced the pacemaker.

That didn't set her back too much though.....because the docs are weaning her off the ventilator again.....and are predicting she'll get out either this coming Thursday or Friday.

All the while here, we've been talking & texting alot........she's become pretty insistent over the past few days about coming up here for a week during my spring break (3/11-3/18).....we're both looking fwd. to that.

I keep hoping and praying she'll get better and that there will be no more setbacks or anything.......but it's all out of my hands here

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:cool: ~ Ben