I can't quite seem to shake these dreams. The overdose ones, that is. It's this recurring nightmare about hot-shotting around a bunch of faceless (literally) people. It's so realistic that I wake up gagging and spitting all over the place, and then am usually too disturbed to get back to sleep.
They don't seem to have a frequency, just seem to go in spurts. I've sat back and looked at my life throughout these spurts, and can't seem to find anything out of the ordinary that would trigger these dreams.
I've tried everything from herbal remedies to sleeping pills, and either they don't help, or the side-effects outweigh the benefits.
I never really did the whole NA thing, and I don't really do the whole twelve step thing. It's been years since I've used, but presently running on about 10 total hours of sleep over the last four days is starting to make me wonder if I need to find a meeting, or do some counseling again, or something to help exorcise these demons in my head.
If I am lost, it's only for a little while.