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Cutting is a temporary fix.
Why not try to lighten up and enjoy life more?

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so ppl ignore me when i cut, but they'll talk to me if i do whatever the fuck it is they want me to do, and i feel like i only have 1 person trying to help me. it seems like no one cares about me while i'm alive so i'd be better off dead. i came close to it last night but the only thing that stopped me was my bff threatening to call my family. i seriously give up on trying to make ppl happy. i hate my life and i just feel like ending it, but i'm scared that i'll hurt my best friend. idk what to do ugh fml!!!!

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so ppl ignore me when i cut, but they'll talk to me if i do whatever the fuck it is they want me to do, and i feel like i only have 1 person trying to help me. it seems like no one cares about me while i'm alive so i'd be better off dead. i came close to it last night but the only thing that stopped me was my bff threatening to call my family. i seriously give up on trying to make ppl happy. i hate my life and i just feel like ending it, but i'm scared that i'll hurt my best friend. idk what to do ugh fml!!!!

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Try to focus on the arguments you have for staying alive, such as not wanting to hurting the ones you love.

Here are some general ideas:

- It is helpful to think of your thoughts as ideas about the world that should be tested and critically examined, not as absolute truth.
- Try to take a step back from the situation and look at it from a far.
- When you are having negative thoughts, ask yourself questions like "what alternative ways are there to think about it?", "is there anything that suggests that this idea I am having is flawed?" etc.
- start writing down the positive events in your life so that you do not forget them, or even make it a couple thing where you and your boyfriend together list the good things in life.
- try to avoid becoming socially isolated. That will make the situation worse. Spend time with loved ones and get outside.
- Physical exercise is effective for depression, assuming you do not have a concurrent eating disorder.

One of the best treatments for depression is antidepressants and cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) and this has been shown with scientific studies. CBT will teach you to find better ways of coping with your sadness instead of cutting.

You can read more about CBT for depression here.

I suggest that you see your general practitioner, tell him about your situation and he may refer you to a good cognitive behavioral therapist. It is a really effective treatment and I think you should give it a try.  

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"The larger the island of knowledge, the longer the
shoreline of wonder" (Ralph W. Sockman)

It may seem like no one loves you but your not in a clear state of mind, its hard to get perspective on things when the world is spinning around you. Take some time for yourself go someplace new and just sit for a while, enjoy yourself, even if you have to force it, your brain is a muscle you have to train it. Soon it will be easy.

I'm always open for a talk.

Best of luck to you.


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Its like banging a rainbow over a waterfall.