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Grandma killed herself?
Replies: 12Last Post Aug. 3, 2012 9:42pm by iconoclast
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I don't know. I really don't know.

It was around three years ago now. She went missing one day. My great uncle called the police, and they came out... and one of their search dogs found her, lying face down in the small pond not too far from the house.

She had died by drowning, because the coroner says her lungs were "foamy"... and somehow, they concluded that she'd done it intentionally, and ruled her death a suicide.

I still don't get it. Why the hell would my nearly century old great grandmother fucking kill herself? She could walk, but not that easily. She didn't suffer from dementia as far as we know; she was still perfectly sane and aware.

Why would someone decide to kill themself after being on this Earth for almost a hundred years? That's a hell of a lot longer than most of us are going to be here.

Goddamn it. I don't know if she killed herself or not. I never will. That particular branch of my family is ten kinds of fucked and trying to get answers would be hopeless...

I just hope she didn't die thinking she was alone, that nobody cared anymore...  

I'm sorry that I didn't go to her funeral, but I was having a lot of difficulties in my life at that time and couldn't miss school, among other things....

Sigh.


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Humans can't drown themselves, it's almost physcally impossible.

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It's strange... why wouldn't someone want to kill themself after being here for that long?  After living for 100 years, don't you think she's experienced enough good in her life to be happy with moving on?  Maybe she wanted to leave the world before she lost anyone else that was close to her (I'm sure many of her friends and family had already passed away at this point).

Who knows... maybe it wasn't really depression... but maybe she was content enough that she felt she was ready to leave?

I know that's a strange way to see it, but that's something i think I could relate to.  Being content enough with the life you've lived to move on...


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Quote: from drunkasaurus at 2:34 am on Aug. 3, 2012

Humans can't drown themselves, it's almost physcally impossible.

But this is an old lady we're talking about. Once she got down into the water, it's entirely possible that she COULDNT get back up.

Anyhow, I'm really sorry to hear what happened, what a shame.. maybe she just.. felt it was her time to go? Maybe she was just ready to be done with this life.

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some old people just get sick of living

"I'm gonna die within 5 years...I might as well just finish my self off now, I want control of that"

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I'm sorry for your loss

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Quote: from Mr Unknown at 2:40 am on Aug. 3, 2012

some old people just get sick of living

"I'm gonna die within 5 years...I might as well just finish my self off now, I want control of that"


basically this, and they dont want to deteriorate into a condition where they lose their dignity and often pride

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Awe I'm so sorry. One of my uncles, well actually I think he is like my great uncle? Any way he committed suicide last year and I just thought it was so sad. He was pretty old, but he had a wife and he was fully capable of everything and like he had children and wow. It's so painful when a relative dies, especially through suicide, so I know how you feel, and I'm sorry :(

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Quote: from Mr Unknown at 6:40 pm on Aug. 3, 2012

some old people just get sick of living

"I'm gonna die within 5 years...I might as well just finish my self off now, I want control of that"


Word. I would honestly rather kill myself rather than wait half a decade with a malfunctioning body....

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There's a woman at work who's 104, she's incredibly able for her age and she isn't even that confused sometimes, but she often has moments where she says things like "I don't want to be here" "I want to die" "I'm an overdone corpse" etc.

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Quote: from YeahItsElla at 9:26 am on Aug. 3, 2012

There's a woman at work who's 104, she's incredibly able for her age and she isn't even that confused sometimes, but she often has moments where she says things like "I don't want to be here" "I want to die" "I'm an overdone corpse" etc.
yeah i feel like that a lot

its too bad that you just get sent to a clinic for saying that even if its psychologically true and no different

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Quote: from iconoclast at 3:10 pm on Aug. 3, 2012

Quote: from YeahItsElla at 9:26 am on Aug. 3, 2012

There's a woman at work who's 104, she's incredibly able for her age and she isn't even that confused sometimes, but she often has moments where she says things like "I don't want to be here" "I want to die" "I'm an overdone corpse" etc.
yeah i feel like that a lot

its too bad that you just get sent to a clinic for saying that even if its psychologically true and no different


Yeahh but at 104 we tend to let her get away with it.

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Quote: from YeahItsElla at 10:17 am on Aug. 3, 2012

Quote: from iconoclast at 3:10 pm on Aug. 3, 2012

Quote: from YeahItsElla at 9:26 am on Aug. 3, 2012

There's a woman at work who's 104, she's incredibly able for her age and she isn't even that confused sometimes, but she often has moments where she says things like "I don't want to be here" "I want to die" "I'm an overdone corpse" etc.
yeah i feel like that a lot  

 its too bad that you just get sent to a clinic for saying that even if its psychologically true and no different


Yeahh but at 104 we tend to let her get away with it.


yeah but being 223 inside isnt really that different, in fact its probably worse

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