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Quote: from The Samsoniteman at 5:37 pm on May 15, 2006

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The evidence is againt you. Eventually, you will feel better and the only way to begin the repair is to find something worth living for and holding onto it for your dear life. I don't need to have suffered from depression to know this.

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you cannot start repair when you dont know where the damage starts. also, repair doesnt guarantee happiness. it guarantees for you to be a little less broken. also, depression is a chemical imbalance. sometimes drugs work, other times not. a person can have a wonderful life. great family, great job, wonderful friends, no money problems, enough to satisfy and still challenge them, and they could want to die. CHEMICAL IMBALANCE. thats not a choice. it just happens. out of your control.  

** and i know what i have to live for. i just find no joy in it. none at all. it is all blank and empty. the eventually means nothing. life is now, here, the present. you dont life for the future, you live for now. otherwise you aren't living. you are waiting for what will never come.

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Sounds to me as if you already have your mind made up that you can't be happy. If you have that mind set of course happiness isn't going to be a choice. You can't use time as an excuse for your depression. Earlier you stated that it'd been 3 years, so you implied that you'd already lost the battle. I had chronic depression for 5 years. I had mild depression before that for about 3 years. I overcame it. I ended up locked up for 11 months and at the end of my sentence I decided, as in CHOICE, that I didn't like the way I was feeling and that I wanted to be happy. I sat for  while and pondered over what I could do to change my circumstances. I figured out that I can't change things I go through at the moment because I'm only 16. I can move out though when I turn 17. That was the answer to everything. As simple as it sounds, when I get down I just remember that things can only get so bad before they have to get better, life isn't always going to be as rough as it is now. I remember that in a few months I'm leaving the enviroment I'm in now. And with every new day I'm one step closer to where I want to be. That was my choice to be happy.

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Well then. uh huh.
wwww.myspace.com/devotion_despite_desire

You might be able to choose to be an optimist, and have a positive outlook, but you cannot make a choice to be happy, without using some force to alter your brain chemistry.

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(Edited by quidam at 8:07 pm on June 26, 2006)

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