I'm not exactly clinically depressed, but through my daily life, I am temporarily physically paralyzed by my memories.
I'm completely ambulatory and am not disabled, but when painful memories come up, my whole body becomes paralyzed. I shut my eyes as tight as I can, and don't ever want to open them.
The thing that helps make these moments bearable is to scream "whore" if I can or whisper it if I absolutely have to.
I can't control these memories; they come up whenever they want to. I'm sometimes thrown into depressed moods because of them. They happen every day, usually 2-3 times.
Who do I need to see? Is it likely that antidepressants would be prescribed for my condition? I'm not dying for them, but I wish I could view my life without too much sorrow each day.
Post edited at 12:30 am on June 24, 2012 by Anonymous