I just got verbally kicked in the face by some random person on FB saying this: ''O Jesus. You have a child? And a few weeks ago you sounded suicidal, and having a child is not reason enough to hold it together...''
And the part that really infuriated me is that 3 of my friends liked that comment to me.
I mean I understand what he was saying because yes I have an amazing beautiful little boy but this sadness took over my soul long before he was even born and not even him can take away the pain of what she's doing to me. I don't know how to breathe without her. I can't understand why people don't get it. There's some things that you just can't recover from. And if it is possible to recover, some of us are just too far gone to allow the light back in.
Because believe you me, I have tried oh so very hard for oh so very long.
This world broke my heart and it's in the process of turning me into stone.
People will never fucking understand.
Just because you are kneeling in disaster doesn't mean that you put yourself there on purpose. Or that you know how to get out of that place if it's even possible. Because not everyone can.
That doesn't mean that I'm not a good Mother. Because I am.
And that doesn't mean that I am suicidal. Because I am not.
So fuck you.
Post edited at 4:00 pm on May 6, 2012 by The Immortal Lie
I Am The Soul Where Hope Lies Dying..