I'm just so sad, irratable, moody, depressed...and just plain a bitch at the moment.  I've been on anti depressants for almost 3 weeks now.  I'm visiting my brother  and forgot to bring my medsing to .  i called the doctor and asked them to call in my medicine, but it's taked 36 hours. I got here yesterday, and going home tom.  They haven't called in the med to the pharmacy...so i'll b 3 days without meds, but it feels like it wasn't working anyway..i've started cutting again.  I wont kill mysolf, that's not what i want, but if i happen to die in an accident everyone will be better off..at least my family will have my life insurance.  I've started cutting agsin...i'm at my brothers house and all i can think about is going to the bathroom to cut my arm and make the pain stop.  I'm just so mean to everyone...i made my roommate cry the other nigh...and i never sed to be like that... I don't like who I've become.  Someone on another forum thinks i might be bipolar...i don't know...it just want it to stop

(Edited by Willowlove at 12:10 am on Mar. 30, 2006)

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"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt within the heart. "
Helen Keller

Secondly, you got to realize, that people don't hate you. Perhaps they just don't want to be around someone who is always depressed. It's nothing against you, but you need to try to ignore what others said. I've been depressed before, and know how it feels. As much as you want a good friend to be a shoulder to cry on, they're not ALWAYS going to want to deal with that. I'm sure you're a great person, and judging by what you said about your dad, your family obviously has a history of depression. Get help with doctors please! Just because today sucks doesn't mean tomorrow will. Life is crazy like that!