But i know that you can do it. You know that you can do it. You just need to get a little fight back. You have shown yourself that you can resist for a small amount of time, so what's stopping you from resisting all together? What is it that makes you feel like you have to do it? It's because you feel dependent on it. You have gotten to the point where you think that nothing will make you feel as good as cutting. But tell me this, how good do you feel when it's done? When you know that you have scarred yourself for life once more? Does the pain really go away? Does it fix all your problems? I know that it doesn't. At the time, it probably feels like it, but in the end your just mutilating yourself. Cutting does not solve anything.

You need to get yourself through this, because you know that it is no good for you. I know that it is no good for you. The process of quitting can take some time and some will power. But it is a process you need to go through. You cannot carry on this way forever.

First you need to decide what it is that is making you want to cut in the first place. You need to deal with the deeper routed problems. Are you currently seeing a counsellor? If not then i would investigate into one. Whether that be a professional private counsellor or just your school or college counsellor. You could even just ask a friend or close relative. Anybody you can talk to. If you feel that all of this is completely out of the question then you could just invest in a diary. Diaries can be a fantastic way to vent. I guarantee that writing about all your feelings and thoughts is a lot more satisfying than trying to cut them out of you. At the end you will feel refreshed and good about yourself because you have vented your feelings in a much more productive way.

The next step is getting rid of all the things you cut with. Throw all your razors away, get all scissors out of your access. Everything sharp, move. You are then removing all temptation for yourself. This is hugely impactive.

Thirdly i would set yourself a goal. Tell yourself that you won't cut for a certain period of time, whether that be a day, a week or a month. Just set yourself some goals. Then when you've reached that target reward yourself and extend it. Prove to yourself that you are capable of not cutting because you are a strong person.

There are lots of alternatives to cutting that can be found on the web. Here are a list of a few Alternatives.
Take a look at them and see what seems plausible to you and try them.

One of my absolute favourite techniques is something called a happy box. This can be any box, that you can decorate yourself and you simply put anything you like inside, anything that makes you feel happy. Whether that be photographs, or letters or anything that makes you feel happy again. You can keep this box somewhere safe and look at it whenever you are feeling low.

Now, i know that the administrators of this site would probably disapprove of me suggesting another forum, but i feel that it would grately benefit you. The website is http://www.recoveryourlife.com . This is a fantastic website that is for people who self harm. It is a brilliant support network and there are counsellors online that you can talk to and it is all free. There you will be able to talk to other people who are in your position. Other people who are feeling the same things you are. It will be a huge encouragement for you.

Finally, i wish you the best of luck. I know that you can do this and deep down i think you know it aswell. If you need to message me for further advice then please do. Good luck.

-Cara

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Week in and week out,
Your lucky charms will always let you down,
Maybe next week we'll see,
Maybe.