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Replies: 3 — Last Post April 14 9:57am by shadowcry
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...when you have anorexia, it's both the happiest and the saddest time of your life.
you spend days watching people and wanting to be normal but also feeling powerful like you've accomplished something, and that you are stronger than them.

and then at night you've got the hunger pains but you feel better than ever that you've gone through another day of eating nothing.

i want it to stop but i can't until i reach my goal. i want to carry on.

i want to die. then i'll be able to rot till i'm weightless.

just sharing my thoughts, before i decide whether or not to go.

2:18 pm on April 12, 2008 | Joined Sep. 2007 | 78 Days Active
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Why do you want to die?
2:19 pm on April 12, 2008 | Joined Aug. 2007 | 204 Days Active
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Quote: from Taylor636Baker at 2:19 pm on April 12, 2008
Why do you want to die?

so many reasons. i've lost interest in everything that used to matter to me. my parents are getting divorced. my mum's suicidal, my sister's suicidal. i haven't eaten for a month and i've lost all my friends. i get used by my boyfriend. i don't want a boyfriend because i don't like guys. i can hardly do anything because i have no energy, and my whole life depends on the next few months and the pressure is driving me insane. and i have no one to talk to because no one fucking gives a shit to notice.

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shadowcry


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it sounds like you're in a difficult situation there. I can relate partially to what you're going through but obviously i could never understand completely the situation you are in. However, i will try and give you my best advice. Suicide is never the best option. It is a means of escape and i can't deny that, but through death you are letting anorexia win. Think about what a devastating impact that would have on your family and friends if you died as well. I'm not trying to make you feel guilty here, I'm just stating the facts. I'm sure you are loved more than you realize and often it is the starvation that makes things feel ten times worse. I've been through the struggles of anorexia and am pleased to be out on the other side now. I cannot explain to  you how much happier i am now i have recovered. I had times of great despair as well as satisfaction whilst i had anorexia but the moments of pure happiness that i experience regularly now is something i only dreamed of. If you are worrying about school and exams then don't, your health is the most important at the moment and your life- nothing is more important than that. So what if you don't do as well in your exams as you could have if you were well, you can always re-take them and often exam boards will take illness into consideration when marking anyway. I would advise you to think about what i have said and perhaps take yourself down to your doctor's surgery to get yourself checked out or find a counsellor who might be able to help. I think you need professional guidance. However, if you need any advice regarding this or need to talk ever- im only a message away. Feel free to pm any time and i'll be glad to talk. I hope this helps :)
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