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I feel like a bitch >.<
Replies: 1Last Post May 5 11:47am by Just Waiting Here
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I feel like a bitch...
I was supposed to call my boyfriend last night like I do every saturday night cause that's the only time we get to talk talk we talk everyfay on the internet but it's not the same. I told my granny to wake me up and she didn't. And I din't call him. He waited up until four fucking thirty for me to call. -cries-  I'm so scared he'll be mad at me or hate me for that cause his ex did the same thing and I promised I'd never do that. And to add insult to injury my ggranny has gone crazy so I'm terrified that I'll go crazy and no one will love me even though my bf promises he'll be there the whole time even if I do go crazy. I'm scared that when he goes to college he'll find someone he loves more than he loves me...and he's scared when I go to camp I'll find someone. I'm just fucking scared. and alll these fears wake up cause I didn't call the one person who makes me feel loved and good about myself last night.

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4:39 am on May 4, 2008 | Joined Dec. 2007 | 86 Days Active
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You know... before my bf and I started going out, we were constantly talking on the internet (I met him online).  And we had gotten very close in a short time... and because of my stress and staying up so long to talk to him, there were some days where I would get tired and somehow fall asleep in from of the computer.  One day?  When it really counted... I managed to fall asleep for two hours.  And he waited... and waited... and when I finally woke up, he was saying good by (this was around 630 in the morning).  I felt horrible... I felt so bad... and I told him this... I explained that I never meant to hurt him like that... and it was that day, that night, and that event that triggered him to ask me out.

Kind of a strange story, don't you think?  But it was the fact that I made a mistake but felt the guilt for it.  I didn't do it because I didn't care... sometimes things happen, that stop us from doing something.  But it's the fact that you can show guilt and sadness from hurting someone that can make ALL the difference, don't you agree?  His ex... did she do it more than once?  Did she do it over and over again?  She she ever take the time to sincerely apologize and explain the situation as to why the call was never made?

So, it's time to talk to your boyfriend.  Time to explain what happened, and let him know that you apologize.  Let him know that if it hurt him, you never meant to, and you would do anything to go back and get the chance to give him that phone call (as I'm sure you would).  We all make mistakes, and sometimes, we're not there when we need to be... but we're human, and that's expected.

And now.. why are you both scared?  Do you care for each other?  If you do, then you should have no reason to worry.  If you truly think he cares about you, then why do you fear that he will leave you?  And the same is for him?  Talk about your fears, talk about your worries... my boyfriend and I sometimes discuss about how we're scared we'll go our separate ways some day.  I'd never want to leave him, but things change... emotions, feelings, personalities, lifestyles... and sometimes move us apart from one another.  But if you spend all your time worrying, then you never get the chance to truly enjoy a good then when you have it, right?

If you both care for each other, if you keep your communication strong, then whether you're at camp, and he's at college, it shouldn't make a difference, don't you agree?  Maybe a honest chat with him will help clear up both your worries :).

Best of luck, alright?  Wish I could have helped you out some more :).


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