I am not suicidal but I am depressed, and my family and therapist are no good. My only good sources are my friends and school counselor. I get the urges to cut a lot because of my medication too, I know this because I did not have them this bad before. I even have it now and I feel like I will do it give a few minutes.

Thank you for reading and posting replies.

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Now, whilst it can be really beneficial to have some outside help when you're trying to stop cutting, it has to be wanted and controlled outside help. What your parents are doing, you know yourself, is doing you absolutely no good, and I think that they NEED to know this so that they can actually do something about it. I mean, I can understand why they're doing what they are - don't you? They love and care for you, and are clearly quite worried about you. However, that doesn't make what they're doing right and it doesn't make things any easier for you at the end of the day, does it? So, you've got to figure out a way to get it into their heads that they need to chill out a little, give you some space, and stop checking you and pumping you full of medication 24/7. The easiest and most obvious way of doing this, I think, would be to just come straight out and talk to them. Yes, I know it's hard and I know it might take a bit of time before they actually listen to you, but there is a chance that it might do some good, right? I mean, I suggest that you sit down your parents and try to let them in on your wee world for a bit. Explain how it makes you feel when they check your arms and legs for cuts, when they drag you to therapy that you don't think is helping and when they get mad at you. Afterall, they can't know how you're feeling unless you, or someone, tells them, y'know? I think talking to them might also help ease their worry for you. At the end of the day, all they really want is what's best for you, and I do think it's so important that you let them know that what they're doing, well, it just isn't helping. Do you think talking to them about it is something you could try, or something that would help? I guess it's worth a shot, right? Failing that, you could also tell your school counselor how you're feeling, and have him/her talk to your parents for you?

Secondly, your medication. How long have you been on it? Has it helped in any other way? Bearing these questions in mind, I think it's really important that you tell someone how the medication is making you feel. If you've been on it for a while now and it's doing nothing but making you want to cut more then that's definitely something that needs dealt with, don't you think? So yeah, let someone know what's going on with that one. There are other medications that can help with depression, so it's ok for you to try another type if these just aren't working for you.

Stopping is really difficult, and it's only really something you can do if you really truly want to do it. Do you? I also think it's important to work on the reasons behind the cutting why do you do it? Identifying the reasons why and working on trying to resolve these reasons can help a great deal. Other than that, I think you should seek comfort in the people that do help you. You mentioned that your friends and school counselor are good sources which is pretty fantastic, so take all you can from that, yeah? Rant it out to them when your parents are doing your head in, try chatting to them when you're feeling low, stuff like that, y'know?

Again, though, I think it's important for you to try resolving these two issues you mentioned - your parents and the medication problems - and also the problems behind the cutting and whatnot. Then you can kinda proceed from there, y'know?

Take care of yourself. If you ever need anything at all, feel free to PM me absolutely anytime. :]

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