I actually could leave Glasgow and not turn back

I miss my sister
like its really unbearably hard not being able to see her

my step mum actually wont let me my step mum told her I didnt want to know her..she thinks I hate her and apparently it totally floored her..

My Dad he's had the lawyers involved and everything because we're not "biologically attached"
and She's going to grow up and not have a clue who the fuck I am.

I lived with her for 5 and a half years...she's my baby sister and I'm losing her
she's everything to me....she makes me laugh and when she's sad it makes me cry...I just want her to remember that and i don't want her growing up and forgetting anything..

I've tried everything to get in contact I've tried battering down the door, I've turned up at her school.I can't get to her and its fucking tearing me apart

i dont want to be here anymore..

i fucking hate it here and everyone with it

I have tried ringing and begging I have tried to intercept them somehow

she comes before Me and my friends. she comes before my dad and she'll come before anyone else that comes along
I told the parents that they were going to wreck her as much as they did me with all the problems around everywhere and the abuse.

possibly worse actually

Livewire your probably hopeless advice givers
but please read this with respect

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death we do not exist.

However... if your dad can get lawyers to support the decision of keeping her separate for you, can you not find a way to counteract that action?  Or course... that may cause an expense, but I wonder if it might get you somewhere.  Sorry, I don't know much on these forms of things.

And these parents sound completely uncompromising, but is there any way to have her see you as something like an 'uncle' instead of a brother or something... I don't agree with lying to people, the truth is often better... but it's just so horrible to lose someone that you're so close to :(.

Good luck, I think your sister should have someone that cares this much about her in her life, because I don't know how much the parents will do...

i guess you can still keep in touch with her by doing little things such as sending her letters, birthday presents and gifts during the holidays. however the only thing you can really hope for is that someday you'll be able to interact with her when she grows up. and don't lose the contact, no matter what the parents do. make effort to let her kno as she's growing up that there's a person who she may never have come to know and recognize, who cares so deeply about her.

honestly, i originally didn't think you were the type of person to feel like this, but i guess people can learn something new every day... you need a hug
*hugs*

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You were meaningful at some point of her life, lived with her, acted like a brother and therefore somehow or another you're emotionally attached to her that should be more than enough to at least let you maintain contact with her, at least once in a while on the phone, birthdays something... (This in an ideal fairness).  

You should consider maybe talking with your step mom and let her understand where you're coming from, and what you want. Maybe asking her to drink some coffee with you, or something like that and sit down and have a heart to heart/serious chat. Make her see things from your point of view.

Parents should understand that kids should be left out from the personal problems they have with each other, and that making them go into the them will just make things harder for everybody. This kind of things (Memories) always stay with people, they never go away.  

It's obvious that the mom of the little girl is trying to protect her in the best way she knows, but at the same time, she's being manipulative, and that's always bad. If she keeps going like that things will get more complicated and emotional for everybody. It could be even potentially harmful for the little girl because of the the huge dramatic change in her life, and the confusion that all of this will cause her.  

It's completely normal to feel like you have already exposed on your topic, and it's even acceptable to cry because this situation is altering your life in different levels. Try to take a deep breath, relax and maybe (Even if this is impossible) not thinking about it for an hour so you can focus in other things and then come back, analyze the situation and act based on the best approach you can possibly find. You're the only one who understands this situations (At least most of us...) so you're the only one who can determine this.

Good Luck.  
PS: I wrote this twice, I closed the window by accident.  

Post edited at 2:47 pm on April 27, 2008 by iJeannie

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I went flying outta my window, been caught doin it once
or twice... but it feels so real nice. Saw the earth, and I
saw the sky and I've been flying ever since
and I've been flying in the sky

It hurts, but what I think you should do is maybe still try to keep in contact. But I think at some point you may have to try to stay back. Because I see you are hurt because you weren't able to contact her. You should occupy yourself and surround yourself with new people or old people you already know. So that you can ease your pain. I've been trying to do this but I've failed mostly. I haven't yet got in contact and from the looks they don't wanna talk to me anymore.

It hurts and I have night mares about it. But you know they say time will ease the pain and maybe fix this problem. But I disagree I think its a on going battle for the rest of your life. When a person becomes that close to you, you can't forget about them. Especially if its been years and years that you had spent with them. Personally I don't think I'll ever forget about the people I lost that I cared about and I don't think you will ever forget about your sister even if you lived to be 100+ yrs old.

I know I won't, I hope my post was helpful but I am going through the same thing. I lost somebody close to me and I lost their family forever. And so I can't give you a real rational solution or solid advice since I am going through this same thing.

Tell her that you would love to be apart of your sisters life. Tell her how you could be an asset while being in your sisters life, for an example: You could be there to give her advice, watch her back, and even when your sister is older tell her which boys she shouldn't go with.

Just tell her that you're her brother and she should be raised around you. Tell your step mother that you'll be there for your sister and even for the step-mother herself. Thats just how much you like to be around her.

Get the idea in her head and make sure she understands it. Don't give up on what you're trying to get her to do, Niddan.

P.S.: Please try to do your best my best wishes goes out to you and your family.

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