okkkk, so i hav been making myself sick for about a year now, a few months ago i just got completely fed up with the constant binging & purging, weighing, obsessing over cals etc. the last 2 months hav been pure hell for me, but i was determined to be try and be ok. and now today i hav just made myself sick for the first time in 2 1/2 months. The only person who knows is my friend who is anorexic & we don't talk that much anymore cos she is to ill....this sucks...
i dunno why im posting this its just nice to get it out cos nobody knows how much im suffering right now. i hate myself so much.
11:03 am on June 24, 2008
3eyes
Quality Control Engineer
well done for admitting this to livewire
you might hate yourself less if you stop doing it and imagine do you want to end up like your sick friend?
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auntiek
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try and get back on to not doing it. if you fail try try and try again
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Xanthorpe
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For 2.5 months you held it together. Just start over today. Beating anything like this is tough - you're going to have tough days. Don't beat yourself up - just build on the positives you have from the 2.5 months of success! You can do it :-)
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i can really relate. feel free to PM me if you want to talk.
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