Let me start with #1. When My mom was diagnosed with this unfortunate disease. It was so hard to see her in pain, having to take chemotherapy, and snapping at me every other moment. I went through a period of not knowing whether she would live or die. My self-esteem went down, I was depressed constantly, I cared less about my appearance, basically everything in my life crashed around me. It is still hard to go and do things I need to without feeling sick, nervous, or a feeling of impending doom. It felt like no one understood my situation, or my mom's situation. I cannot imagine what my mom is going through, and I get frequent headaches.. and it hurts me immensely to see her in pain. She is doing so much better recently though, on the chemo, and she is having a cat-scan tommorow to monitor her progress. I really hope we get positive news. It's like living on the edge, Never knowing what will happen.

Situation #2 is the situation that I have been faced with most recently. I had heard numerous bad things about my now ex-boyfriend before I even went out with him. Mostly that he was a "player" of sorts, and also that he is arrogant/will end up hurting me. I gave him the benefit of the doubt though, and we went out for almost a year. He told me he loved me everyday, Got me flowers, etc.. But something just was off. I tried to talk to him about my frequent bouts of depression due to my mom, and I have had other  depressive episodes as well in my past.. as is my nature I suppose, having an anxiety disorder. He would begin to make disrespectful remarks to me (and made them off and on to me throughout) but he would cover it up by telling me he loved me and that would be that. The disrespect did not really bother me much.. Until one day when my friend went up to me and said that he had gone over to another girl's house.. In hopes of trying to "get to know her".. And that he was maybe even "considering" her. It hurt so bad that  anyone would say he was not being honest with me. I asked him about it and he said she was just a friend, and that my friend who had said that is just naive and stupid. I had seen him texting this particular girl on his phone though.. Almost all of the time, And there was just something off about the entire situation. This girl is 15, and my ex is 18. Thus, A huge 'dramatic' situation unfolded. I did not know who to believe in the entire situation. After that took place, We finally came to a resolution on the first 15 year old girl he was talking to could only be a friend. I was placated.. For that moment. A week or so later, I was over at his house, and he was texting people on his new phone (he got one with his work/graduation money). I casually picked up the old one and started playfully looking at things because I was bored, He was more or less texting people instead of talking to me.. I stumbled across his outbox, and there were a few messages to yet another 14-15 year old girl.. The messages read: "You're so adorable", "I am so sad I can't get to see you" and something along the lines of "Or arousing". It was SO hurtful. I could not believe he would do that even after our huge fight before, and how I had even apologized for the rude comments I had made before, and excused the rude ones he had made. I cried and asked him how he could ever do this, Especially in a vulnerable time that I was going through. He replied that he was just a "flirty" person.. and he "flirts" with all of his friends. There was still something off about the entire situation though, and it hurt like hell. And now, he tells me that I was selfish, immature, and he felt 'locked down'. With my mom's situation, it was too much for me to take. I have lost all inspiration towards ANYTHING, and i feel like blank shit. My head hurts constantly.

#3. Still not getting any.

ps- Anyone have any suggestions?

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"Un croquis vaut mieux qu'un long discours."

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I only read #2, but it sounds like you were just thinking too much into it. The whole "something off" you kept mentioning didn't make much sense.

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How did it not make sense?

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"Un croquis vaut mieux qu'un long discours."