im still happy now. i have a amazing girlfriend....and amazing friends and family.

but i cannot help think how i am letting myself down. i have lots of arguments with my mum about doing jobs...we have a system where i get paid for doing jobs.sometimes i feel like her slave....it just makes me really stressed....

also i feel like i let myself down as i have two exams on tuesday next week.

now i have revised slightly but i know that i can do much more...when i think about this i feel like im just going to be a person who fails at everything.....

i guess its all rather pathetic.

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I AM ItsEllaYeah's SEXAII BITCH
And they burnt up the diner where I always used to find her.
Licking young boys blood from her claws.

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Don't let yourself get beat down with these sorts of things. Everyone has arguments with their parents, it's just a way of life. Some might have more arguments than others, but don't think that she doesn't love you or care about you. Most of the time that's exactly why they act like they do.

If you feel stressed from your jobs, then stop doing them, or try and do them less frequently. In either case, go to your mum when both of you are calm and try to have a nice orderly conversation. Talk about how stressed you get and how tiring it is for you. Being a natural mother she will care and she will understand the situation. It's more than likely she's been in a similar situation herself.

Go and revise for your exams. Your mum wants you to do well in the future, and the exams count a lot for it. If you have a lot of stress from these jobs then explain that to her, and how you wish to concentrate on your exams next week.

The most important thing is to remain confident in yourself. If you feel sad it won't help with the situation. A lot of times it's hard to recover when you feel so down, so try and do some uplifting activities or things that make you laugh. Go watch a comedy film for an hour, or play a game. Anything as long as it takes your mind off the situation.

It's not pathetic. Many people go through similar thoughts. Just talk to your mum, concentrate on school and try to have fun and enjoy yourself.

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