i feel like ive hit rock bottom again.

I decided a few days ago im ltierally crazy.

besides being bipolar, im really crazy.
like when i got upset i triggered into this whole other world. where i thought everything wass perfect, and i jsut didnt believe in anything bad. i would sit in my room for days just in my bed sitting.

now the only difference is i think im in a depression again.
i dont mean im just sad.
being depressed HURTS.
ive been in my room for four days, not eating much mor ethan a few things of bread and some water. I lay in bed and listen to music. from time to tim go online. ive lockd my door, not that my parents would come in to notice.
ive turned off my phone.

and whats sad is that i dont want to be happy.
im actually enjoying this peace.
as miserable as i may be....

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