Epilepsy has really fucked me up. Especially since I have 3 types of seizures that have evenly effected languange, memory, and execuctive functions. In the last 2 years I've lived in isolation, with no healthy relationships except with my mom. But seeing 2300 happy kids who ignore me every day seriously pisses me off. I'm not sure if I like people anymore. I don't know if I long for a partner. I feel more like killing someone. Them parents said when you get angry to hit a pillow. I want a reaction. I want to hit a mirror with a bat. Until I am happy I want to make someone suffer.