how can I become more normal? I wish I could redo my childhood in a better environment and be better adjusted. I just wish I could be myself and drop anything I've been brainwashed.  What do you think I should do? Plz don't read this and dont post something unless what you wanna say is mean. thanks.

Post edited at 6:57 pm on May 11, 2008 by Anonymous

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Your childhood is already over, isn't it? Leave the past in the past and may you have a pleasant...future.

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I grew in a similar environment but my parents also psychically abused me as well. I was forced to be independent.

Your past shouldn't decide who you are now or make you less normal. (: Just accept yourself its a lot easier than trying to change when you don't really need to.

BESIDES THERES NO SUCH THING AS NORMAL!

Post edited at 6:59 pm on May 11, 2008 by Hiryo

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I grew up in an environment that was sexually, physically and emotionally scarring as a child. I have bad memories of it and I hated life back then. It was a horrible experience. However, I didn't let it effect me as I grew into adulthood. I let myself know that I can get past it...that I can put it behind me because after the situation was stopped...I knew that the only way to survive was to do it myself. I was determined to be the best in what I could do. I realized that now that the past was behind me, I could make the right decisions in life to guide me to better times. The worst was over, I could live a normal life with them gone and me on a fresh new stone. You have to view life that way...that every new day is one step closer to freedom that you can shape and survive in

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Quote: from Minnick at 6:56 pm on May 11, 2008

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I grew up in an environment that was sexually, physically and emotionally scarring as a child. I have bad memories of it and I hated life back then. It was a horrible experience. However, I didn't let it effect me as I grew into adulthood. I let myself know that I can get past it...that I can put it behind me because after the situation was stopped...I knew that the only way to survive was to do it myself. I was determined to be the best in what I could do. I realized that now that the past was behind me, I could make the right decisions in life to guide me to better times. The worst was over, I could live a normal life with them gone and me on a fresh new stone. You have to view life that way...that every new day is one step closer to freedom that you can shape and survive in

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i fear what kind of person they've made me into though. I lay under shells of self-protective behavior and i still live with them. I want to make things better but I don't know how.

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My mother died of AIDs when I was 14. I was consistently exposed to her anger, her sexual partners, etc. I had lots of pent up anger and traits that she passed on to me since that was the environment I had been in. I went to counseling for two years after her death. I learned to cope and find healthier ways to let out my anger. Also, it's a matter of will power...your children won't be raised that way if you learn to condition yourself to be a better parent than your own. It takes time, but it will work. Also, finding a partner who's willing to help you out in that control can ease the process.

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Quote: from CherryD at 6:54 pm on May 11, 2008

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Your childhood is already over, isn't it? Leave the past in the past and may you have a pleasant...future.

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I'm all screwed up though. I guess I act like my boyfriend hits me. I say sorry to everything. Its hard to stop when its what i've learned.

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Take a deep breath, and count to ten.

I don't see why I'm saying that but.

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