God damn obsession. -- LiveWire Teen Forums

Like, it's starting to drive me crazy. I have a boyfriend and everything, we're happy, but there's this other guy. His name is Corey. He intrigues me to the point of insanity, and I can't take it anymore. The way he captivates me is too much to handle. Generally, I'm a pretty outgoing person. Always, always, I have been one of the least shy people I have ever heard of, but around him.. I freeze up and can't say anything, or I'll become really loud and obnoxious.

My mom told me one day that he thinks I'm cute. He said this in October, but my mom didn't tell me he said that until about March. That's what sparked my interest, him thinking I'm cute. The next day, he had to give me a ride home, and there was another person in the car with us. The other kid, Robert, goes to my school, and I always pass him in the hall after first period. We never talk on the way to my house, it only takes about 30 seconds to drive me from where he works to my house. But, I noticed that this Robert kid has been looking at me like he knows something about me that I don't. I say it's Corey, he's the only person who we both know.

I start getting really paranoid and thinking it's bad, and thinking that Corey thinks I'm the biggest fag in the world for hanging out at McDonald's every day, for Christ's sake. My mom works there, and she doesn't live with me, so I go see her, and he works there, too.

I've never talked to him. Ever. I've known him for eight months, I see him three times a week, every week, and he's given me at least 50 rides home, never speaking to me, ever.

I want to talk to him, so bad. I want to be close with him, and just chill. I think he's on the same level as me, and there's only one other person I've ever felt like that towards.

I don't like him as more than a friend, he's just really fucking cute. So cute, that I can't talk to him because of it.

I never stop thinking about him.
I feel like a stalker.
I can't handle it.
I feel dirty, and shitty, like there's no way he could ever accept me into his life.
I want to be best friends with him, or at least just tell him how I feel.
But, I'm scared of what he will say!
What if he hates me?!
Why does it bother me so much, that this kid I've never talked to might hate me.
Why can't I talk to him?

Fuck.
I'm like a stalker.
I always see who he's talking to.
There's a girl I hate, who he talks to, and I'm afraid that since I'm nothing like her, how could HE like ME?
And it freaks me out.

It just freaks me out.
I..
cannot keep living like this.
Every day, it's waitwaitwaitwaitwait through school, failing because I don't give a shit, just so I can go see him at 3:58.
Exactly.
Every day.

I think I would be okay if I could simply talk to him, but I cannot do it. I have to. I just don't know how, and I cannot work up the nerves to do it.
I tried.
I commented him on myspace, and told him that he seems really cool and that he should talk to me, but I've gotten nothing back.
I bet he hates me.
I KNOW he hates me.

But why did he tell my mom I was cute, and stare at me all the time, and smile when my mom talks about me. Why does he look at me the way he does?

What do I do, before I go fucking off the wall?

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