i cannot participate in class or do presentations, i like cry.

at dances, i never dance, i stand there waiting to leave so nervous

i have a bunch of different friends and they love me, which is weird

i never had a boyfriend, i just hooked up with this guy a bunch of times though

i get nervous when guys come up to me in front of my friends

i don't talk much when my friends are with people who i do not know well

for ex, i went on a cruise with two of my friends and one of them was hooking up with a guy and this guy's friend was really cute and thehooking up one said to the single one that i wanted him to stand next to me(which i never said) and when he stood nect to me i got all stiff and scared and everyone laughed

for ex, at a karaoke party with all my friends i was the only one who didnt sing

i hate going places when i know a bunch of people will be there

i am such a quiet person in the weirdest moments but at times i am so loud

i get so nervous to go places that are usually fun for most people, i cant enjoy myself

i am so depressed, i am going to college in 3 months, i want to change and be more open and comfortable and not always on edge.  i cant live like this, i wana enjoy things like everyone else......any advice? help? im SO upset

You don't have to be that old person anymore...so don't.

You get the opportunity to start over. Be grateful for it.  

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I recognize the hope you kindle in your eyes.

its hard, but once you do it, it feels awesome and will become second nature  

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I'm just as bad as straight guys...only chicks do it for me.

You just need to relax and quit taking things so seriously.

If you really do find those things a problem and you really want to come out of your shell, you need to act upon it. There's no use in sitting around and saying "I'm depressed because I'm not social enough" -- DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.

College is only 3 months away. If you break away from old ties, it's going to be easy to start anew.

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To sacrifice what you are and to live without belief,
that is a fate more terrible than dying.