My girlfriend just broke up with me a while ago. At first I was angry, then I got deeply depressed. now I'm acting irratically.

Panic attacks, if you don't know what they are, are the worst hell. Sometimes I'll look up at the sky on a beautiful evening and expect it to just crack in two. It's a stage where I think irrationally, my mind races, and I feel paranoid. Paired with the heart condidtion (SVT, long story short, palpotations) and my unwanted, intrusive thoughts brought on by the OCD, these things last long and the effects are just unbearable. I've cancelled my german exchange trip, I've had to leave work, and I was sent to the school nurse because of these attacks.

And I think I just broke up a perfectly fine friendship.

My ex has been very good with accepting my attacks. But this morning I texted her when I had one and said some dumb stuff accusing her of hating me and treating me like garbage and she said she's had enough. She can't deal with me anymore.

I'm pathetic. And they're getting worse and worse.... I used to get them once every couple of weeks. then once a week. When I found out my ex cheated on me, I started getting them everyday...

Lately I've been getting them multiple times a day.... My life. It's barely even living at all. I'm trying SO HARD to be normal. I've REALLY REALLY REALLY tried not to bother her. I'm insane.

What can I do? My dad won't let me go back to my therapist for a while... I'm just. I'm out of options. I'm at the end of my rope. I used to be severely depressed around the time I was diagnosed with OCD. This panic? This anxiety? It's a million times worse. I'm CONSTANTLY afraid.

What do I do? Are there medicines I can take...? I'm so... I'm done. I can't live like this anymore.

Please, please help me.

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why won't your father let you see the therapist anymore? clearly you're in need of one. try cooling down for now. let things go by and dont worry too much. then on monday talk to your school counselors and see if they can help you out at all.

i still dont understand why your dad's not being understanding, but maybe if you tried explaining your situation?

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i completely understand your situation.

why won't your father let you see the therapist anymore? clearly you're in need of one. try cooling down for now. let things go by and dont worry too much. then on monday talk to your school counselors and see if they can help you out at all.

i still dont understand why your dad's not being understanding, but maybe if you tried explaining your situation?

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well, it's a hypno therapist and she's very expensive. he wants to give me time to digest what she told me (she just regressed me) and stuff but. i want to go back. but i can't just make him take me. its sooooo expensive...

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u cant be "ot allowed" to see a therapist/psychologist if u have a condition that needs professional help. go and see ur school counsellor and get them to talk to ur dad, if he doesnt do v e thing, they will find another way to help you.

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thanks so much. its not like my dad doesn't care. he just doesn't know the extent and i dont want him to spend so much money on the therapy.

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Quote: from HatesYou at 4:34 pm on May 10, 2008

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i completely understand your situation.  

 why won't your father let you see the therapist anymore? clearly you're in need of one. try cooling down for now. let things go by and dont worry too much. then on monday talk to your school counselors and see if they can help you out at all.  

 i still dont understand why your dad's not being understanding, but maybe if you tried explaining your situation?

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well, it's a hypno therapist and she's very expensive. he wants to give me time to digest what she told me (she just regressed me) and stuff but. i want to go back. but i can't just make him take me. its sooooo expensive...

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ahhh... money problems... damn that sucks.

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MY STRAWBERRY VIRGIN!
Punch your lights out, Hit the pavement
That's what I call entertainment
Causin' problems makes yo

And, yes, there are medications that you can take if you need them. I'm on Lexapro.

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"Under the hardness of her facade a woman's heart is still beating."

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Do you have insurance? If you do, you can see your primary care provider (your family doctor) and tell he/she that you need to see a counselor/therapist that your insurance will cover. Then, once you see one, tell them what's wrong and they'll take it from there.

And, yes, there are medications that you can take if you need them. I'm on Lexapro.

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thank you, i'll check that medicine out.

And insurance covers regular psychologists, but I've been to two and neither helped me out too much. I suppose I can try to find another one, though.

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You can't really request it, you gotta talk to a doctor and your counselor because there are other options such as Celexa which is like the "mother" of Lexapro. The makers of Lexapro just took the active ingredient out of Celexa which makes it stronger. On the downside, some insurance companies won't cover it until you've tried one or two other medications that have generic versions and failed them which is the problem I'm currently facing.

You should probably see your doctor so he/she can refer you to someone. Doctors usually have people they prefer to refer you to.

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"Under the hardness of her facade a woman's heart is still beating."

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You can't really request it, you gotta talk to a doctor and your counselor because there are other options such as Celexa which is like the "mother" of Lexapro. The makers of Lexapro just took the active ingredient out of Celexa which makes it stronger. On the downside, some insurance companies won't cover it until you've tried one or two other medications that have generic versions and failed them which is the problem I'm currently facing.

You should probably see your doctor so he/she can refer you to someone. Doctors usually have people they prefer to refer you to.

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good idea- thank you so much. you're really helping me out ^_^

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