i want to text my friend, but i don't think i should, because i want to ask him how his prom went with my other best friend, but i'm not sure it was last night, because it might've been scheduled for today, but i really want to talk to him...

i'm not hungry at all, and my stomach feels distended and disgusting, but i really, REALLY want to eat, but i know I shouldn't, because i'm not hungry, and i'm terrified that i might go up another pound, because i've already gone up two, and i hate myself for it.

maybe i would go eat, if my dad weren't downstairs, but i don't feel like dealing with him, and i don't know what else i can do, because i've already read the fifteen library books i got out this morning, and i'm at a loss for activity...

I don't know.
I just don't know.
i'm so tired.
but i can't sleep.
i just don't know!