It's been 3 years since I've been with my ex boyfriend we'll call him T.J. I lost my virginity to him and by horrible circumstances after the fact we broke up. Many times we tried again but the "parents" never go along and forbid us from seeing one another. Making things difficult. We were both beaten pretty badly when they found out a few times we were together again but we loved each other deeply and didn't give up until he was forced to move 5,000 miles away and told he was never comming back home. When he was able to I was with another guy that I had magically fallen in love with and 2months pregnant with his baby. In a fight T.J. called me to be a good friend and then told me he never stopped loving me and wanted me and my unborn child with him despite it being his child or not. I was taken aback. he professed everything to me and told me he had saved the money to marry me and would take the child as his own. I really have never stopped thinking about him either there was always something to remind me of him and our love for one another. I told him I couldn't and we remained friends. It seems to be if not eery night every other night he haunts my dreams and I can't help but wonder if I'm really ment to be with him or is this my mind playing tricks with my heart.
I'm still with the baby's father and we had a beautiful baby boy. He's now 9 months and his father and I are as happy as could be in our relationship but what kills me is the thought of him. Why is it he's still on my mind all the time. Why do I ask myself "should I be with him" It's been leaving me severly heavy hearted and confused.
PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME UNDERSTAND!!!!!
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