...i, am not a jerk. i'm a not some damn asshole or anything like that. If thats what you are assuming. then I'm sorry my life hasn't been up to par with all the rest of you. I'm fucking sorry that I just can't handle it anymore.
I'm sorry that I ignore you, and distance myself.
But I know better than to try anything while I remain in this state. People constantly act as if I'm not trying to fix myself, and when I do say I am trying, they say I'm not trying hard enough. Many of those who say that have no grasp of what I have been through at all.
All I'm doing is trying to keep myself together, and all of you make it even more difficult.
Not to mention how much I have to deal with other people, that are so stupid that its unbelievable.
You know what? I really don't want to go on more.
I'd rather not detail this further, because my mind feels really screwed up, must go exercise and do something get rid of this stress.