first off, do not listen to that. Second, what is so bad with yourself that you would have to cut yourself in the first place? You are just as good as everyone else...who knows maybe better!....but then why cut? I know it probably feels good and it releases some stress but your only harming yourself in the long run. You seem like a smart person and knows exactly what you are doing. You do need to talk to someone though, if your pain is that serious, but if you dont think it is then why cut?....do everyday people cut?... no of course not. And I know I am NOT your mother but you have so much to do then to cut and what ever it is bugging you to make you cut you have to just let it go. I promise you will feel so good once you do. I wish you luck!