If he keeps on pressuring you about this, you need to reiterate that fact that you don't want that in your system.  It really is enough to say you don't want to.  You don't need an explanation about it.  Maybe, if you want to get a more educated opinnion as to why, you can research the effects and facts about the drugs.

Bottom line:  Do what is most comfortable to you, and not comform what other people (even your boyfriend) want in a serious decision like this.

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I don't know, I think I am 70/40 on this issue.  I always give it my 110%.

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I'm slightly afraid that this is eventually going to break us up.

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It's good that you can accept the fact that he does this type of thing, and it doesn't seem to have much impact on your feelings for him. I shouldn't think you have to worry much about that issue breaking you two up.

But for your own awareness, if you ever start to become a nazi about his drug use, it will only force him to do it behind your back; which has a high probability to lead to the end of your relationship. In fact, the lack of acceptance for my own drug use lead to the demise of my first long term relationship. It also lead the the end of my best friends 2 year relationship. (I was surprised he could keep it a secret for so long)

I would say just explain to him why you don't want to do drugs, but as you stated, you have no reason. Possibly explain to him that you need to take things at your own pace, that you aren't accustomed to such drug usage. If it seems like a possibility, tell him that if given enough time to become comfortable that you will more than likely be willing to have a psychadelic experience with him.

He really shouldn't be pressuring you to do this with him as much as it seems he is. But as long as you can convey the fact that you don't mind him doing drugs on his own, you two should be fine.

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It's such an abstract feeling for me, and I have no reason to want to do drugs or not want to do drugs.

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You are identifying with two polar views:
1) Doing drugs
2) Not doing drugs

I suggest you seriously re-evaluate your position on drugs: what they mean to you, their benefits and detriments, why you are not using drugs, et cetera.

You've taken side with one position, but can't substantially back up your reasons for doing so.  Read up extensively on the pros and cons of drug use (from multiple sources) until you can decide for yourself why exactly you choose to use drugs or not use drugs.

That's my $.02

Post edited at 2:28 am on Nov. 11, 2006 by old american century

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If you really don't want to smoke and he's pressuring you too much then, well, you know the answer.  I've gone out with people who don't do any drugs and the relationships were able to survive it quite easily since you don't exactly spend every second with the person you are dating.

I see where he's coming from though.  Smoking with a person you are serious about is a really amazing experience.  Understand that that is all he wants.  He's not going to break up with you simply because you don't want to share in that experience and if he does, he's an asshole.

I guess this is kind of hard because I don't really understand where you are coming from.  The reason anybody smokes pot is for the experience and I don't understand how somebody can just say "I have no reason to feel this experience".  That's like saying you won't backback through europe because you don't need to.  I'd think long and hard and try and find the real reason why you don't want to smoke, tell him, and then you'll both feel better.  I dont' know, if you are so afraid that the fact that he is doing softcore drugs will tear you apart, the relationship seems kind of flimsy...

   If you feel like this now, then it might get worse as you get deeper into the relationship. I knew I had a problem about it but never did anything. It kept on building up to the point where I couldnt take it anymore. You should tell him that If he really likes/loves you then he should listen to what you say. Tell him exactly what you told us, and if he doesnt really care then he doesnt value the relationship.

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Guaranteed to blow your mind.

This is the wiley and illusive aforementioned tasty boyfriend that Ms. Colada has illuded to.  I just wanted to swing by and throw in my own thoughts on the matter, as I was having a similar discussion about this on another forum I am a part of.  First and foremost - as I see some assumptions being made - it is most certainly not my intent to pressure Jenny into consuming any substance she may not wish to consume.  Rather, it is the relatively simple (and paradoxically difficult) attributes of unconditional love that I would call tolerance and acceptance, that I so sweetly seek from those I care for.  

Please forgive the length and relative meandering of the following composition; I promise that if you make it through its entirety, you will see the correlation to the topic at hand.  Incidently, if you wish to read it within its complete context, feel free to visit the original thread (note: the linked thread is operating off of our backup server at present, and therefore may not load correctly for all visitors until Monday evening, the 27th of November 2006).  Without further ado:

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   I guess it's just really important to me that people be able to have these experiences. The illegality of it seriously pains me, and worse than that is the societal attitudes towards it. It means that when people do have these experiences, there is so much fear involved, because we live in a culture of fear. I mean [...] it's insanity, truly.

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   I really want to get involved in activism, to some degree, even if it's not organized activism and more a self-contained activism, on behalf of psychedelics. I mean, I want to take part in panel discussions and conferences on the topic, I want to be part of a culture of intelligent people who see this as an important phenomenon, not just a bunch of kids who want to see swirly wirly shit on the walls (though of course, that is a ton of fun!) People who are being creative in their lives and whose creativity is an outgrowth of their psychedelic experiences and who believe that everyone should have the right to have those experiences without fear or shame.

   I just want the people I love the most to know who I am. I'm so tired of the negative stigma attached to the things that I believe in so strongly. I'm so sick of being an in-the-closet user of psychedelics to certain people in my life. [emphasis added]

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This line of thought has been weighing heavy on my mind for the past many weeks. I empathize with your yearning for freedom, your desire to foster and proliferate intelligent discussions on the subject of consciousness manipulation, altered perspectives, and the psychedelic experience in general. Likewise, your sadness and disappointment regarding the way in which our culture has made the chemically-induced exploration of our own minds a subject of taboo, both legally and socially, is also something that is really hitting home at the current juncture in my life.

It is the social stigma in specific that is so relentless and unforgiving, that at times I wish I could flood the world with so much joy that one could not help but spontaneously embody a tolerance for all the varied modes of living in this odd experience we call reality. Unfortunately this is not so easy; we are all products of our environment and respective upbringings, and to shake and even understand these influences is no easy task, requiring significant introspection and a willingness to evaluate the self in the midst of all its darker, selfish, and otherwise distasteful ways of being which we are often taught largely to ignore (yet oddly enough, not so much to un-learn or reform into something more positive).

It is an interesting parallel, your conflict in the free and honest expression (of your inner desires, intrigues, experiences, and ponderances) with your mother in regard to psychedelics; as I am now thrown into a similar trial with a new love of my life. Though time spent with this woman is some of the most wonderful I've yet had the pleasure to experience, she has great trouble allowing me to express or to discuss my own perceived implications of psychedelic exploration, its responsible use and its potential benefits as I've come to understand them through my own historical dabbling into such volatile yet viscerally exciting and rewarding realms of mental expanse, thought, and consideration.

What then to do? I have chosen for the time being to walk this path - one of intentional shielding - where I consciously censor my own language and action, as a sacrifice for my partner's mental comfort. It is not that I need her to experience these things as I do, but rather that (as you similarly stated) I want her to know me for who I am completely, and to be able to listen with an open ear to my most intimate musings and reflections. I want to share myself freely with her, what I have learned from my experiences, and to bounce these philosophies off of her as I would enjoy doing with any close friend of intelligent and open mind.

Yet, the fact remains that she becomes visibly disturbed and indeed intolerant upon any mention more than in passing, of psychedelics, their use, or their effects.. particularly if I attempt to encourage introspection into her underlying reasons for the defensive and discomforted mindstate she manifests when the given topic enters open discussion. She will proclaim that it is not her intention nor desire for me to change my way of being, simply that she is uncomfortable around the given subject matter. In other words, that I can do as I please on my own time, so long as when I am around her I restrain myself from sparking up that joint or from introspecting upon last week's psychedelic journey. But then [as she is living with me] is this not in effect an elusive ultimatum, a veiled requisite for me to change my habits in order to placate her insecurity? Afterall, my own time has become blurred into a manifestation of our time, as we spend so much of it together.

I have no desire to ask her to leave my house at any given moment should I wish to pick up the guitar and engage a toke, and on the same token I would not expect her nor would I pressure her to join me in said toke. I only desire for her to be comfortable with me for who I am, completely. Acceptance, tolerance, and an understanding of differing perspectives, even if only in such a way as to understand that we are indeed different but that it is perfectly wonderful to be different. For the moment I will continue to walk this path, and perhaps this woman I love will find a way to feel comfortable with my chemical experience and my interest in the mind and all of its potentials. I must however simultaneously accept that she may never be able to comfortably understand these things about me. Fortunately I find myself with much time to spend, and this experience on the whole is full of heart, teaching me new things about myself, about interpersonal interactions, compromise, and life at large.

You know what? I'm stoned, and I'm proud!
.. and Jenny, I love you  

Search mushrooms and read all of the experiance volts, it may help you understand why he does it. And if you ever do get curious and try em, then you will know what to expect!

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Leik, OMG

Peace

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"Hey, you're not driving home till you finish this beer."

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In my opinion you should check erowid.org.

Search mushrooms and read all of the experiance volts, it may help you understand why he does it. And if you ever do get curious and try em, then you will know what to expect!

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1. if i it was me in your situation, i would feel like the guy was trying to change me.  and whether its for a good reason like to quit smoking or to finish school or something, or for a "bad" reason like to experiment with drugs or do something sexual that you don't want to do, most people resent it when another person tries to change them.  it might only be a little resentment or even just subconscious, but i think everyone resents it somewhat.  

2. i would also think that, if it is entering my mind that our relationship might not be able to survive this disagreement, then how would we be able to survive something more important and something more relevant to the real world.  like more of a "grown up" problem.  i mean doing drugs is something you can do when you dont have a lot of responsibilities right?  theres not as many people who have jobs and kids and everything that can go getting stoned all the time.  so this is something thats a problem because youre young now and its easier to do what you want like that.  but what about when you need to decide if you want to get married or have kids or get a new job or whatever.  if youre afraid of what this whole thing about drugs is doing to your relationship, then you must be afraid of what might happen when a more serious issue happens.

3. i know i smoke cigarettes and ive smoked weed and still do once in a while.  but i dont smoke weed that much and i dont drink alcohol that much.  i may sound somewhat hipocritical because i do smoke cigarettes, but ive never believed in using drugs to like... get that kind of feeling of just being drunk or high or whatever.  i just like knowing that what i experience and feel and everything are real and not affected by alcohol or drugs.  i just feel like i dont need those things to feel happy or to have fun.  people who try to get me to do more than i want make me feel like either theres something wrong with them that makes them need to feel better through artificial ways, or more often, that they think that im not as fun as they are when theyre drunk or stoned.  i dont know why but i always feel like people who are using something are really insecure when im around and i dont want to.  and i know im secure in my decisions, so it always makes me question them because theyre so insecure.  

i dont know if any of that made sense or helps or anything, but its just what i was thinking.

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