You have incredible writing skills.

I want to tell you that it is wonderful that you can take the time, think to yourself, and admit that what you're doing is extremely dangerous. Many girls that are in your situation, cannot do this because they're scared. I want to tell you that appearance is not everything, who cares if you have a few extra pounds. You must understand that you can't do this like you said you're weakening your immune system.

If you continue to do this it will only make it weaker. The weaker it gets the worst your body gets inside and out. Then people will start to ponder around this and start saying well what could be wrong. The more you do this, I must say, that you are only causing more problems with your body. I want to compare these two; appearance and health

Appearance < Health

And you are well aware of this. Every time you to think about these two. I know , you know which one is better. Just think, before you do.

If you need any advice, just tell me, I'll always be here.


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Tavis = THE SEX
As I Spy From Behind My Giant Robt's Eyes
I Keep Him Happy Cause I Might Fall If He Cries

In our culture, Sadly we now live surrounded but impossible body figures, that can't really be portrait by healthy normal people, but because of all the media we end up brainwash about it, and self conscience.  

You're indeed someone to admire. Talking about is the first step, most people won't even admit it. You should feel good about this. Also you shouldn't feel ashamed because at least 2 or 3 people out of 10 have an eating disorder and don't really admit it, and as you know some die because of the denial.

High school is really one of the hardest moments teenagers experience. Being surrounded by other self conscious hormonal teens who don't really think about the repercussion of their comments and actions on other people is critical.  

Seems to me that your family obviouly needs to suspect at least that something is happening. Maybe their just waiting for you to talk to them, and I think that could be a good Idea. If you find that talking with a member of your family is too hard, well at least your started here, so why don't you try to talk with a friend? Or a counselor?  

There are programs, camps and forums on the web ... (You name it, you just need to find it) specialized in helping people with this kind of problems. Maybe if you could tell me from what part of USA you are I could try to search for a place.

Your doctor let me tell you, didn't do his work right. As an specialist he or she should have notice something and try to talk to you about it, obviously that didn't happen. You should either consider going again, and asking for help or looking for a doctor specialized in this subject. I would expect that if you go and see the first one, he/she could tell you the name of a good one.  

I found this for you:
http://www.edtreatmentcenters.com/contact.php
http://www.edtreatmentcenters.com/blog/
http://www.something-fishy.org/treatmentfinder/

See if they work for you.

I know that you're scared, but I don't really want to give you and advice of how to stop doing because I'm not an expert on the subject and I could make things worst. You can trust me while I say this, that even if I'm a stranger you can ask for email or Private Message me here, And I'll try to help.

Good Luck Dear.
I hope this works.

Post edited at 12:30 pm on Feb. 24, 2008 by iJeannie

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I went flying outta my window, been caught doin it once
or twice... but it feels so real nice. Saw the earth, and I
saw the sky and I've been flying ever since
and I've been flying in the sky

Post edited at 5:43 pm on Feb. 24, 2008 by jda