I would like to begin by talking about your suicide attempts. What caused these attempts? Did it have to do with your first love? If so, do you really think that he is the healthiest person to go back to? After all, someone who causes you that much pain can't be a good resource. What would happen if you both were to have a really good break up. Could you handle things or would you be potentially suicidal? If you choose this route, you need to get on anti-anxiety medication ASAP to prevent a future problem like this.

Now on to the actual relationship spectrum. Obviously you aren't "in love" with the person who is moving to be with you. If you are in love with someone you only think about them and you certainly aren't more fond of someone else then that person. You may love him, but if you were to stay with him it would really just be leading him on. Also, in the end you wouldn't be satisfied because you would constantly be thinking of someone else. People who are unsatisfied in their relationships are more likely to commit adultery in the future.

So step one would be -
Break things off with guy number two.

Get him out of the way first things first. It's only fair that you don't lead him on. Especially since you obviously are "in love" with the first guy.

Now, on to the first guy. I already mentioned that I thought it could be a dangerous route for you to go. You know that you could always just start over from scratch. Be single for a while; this way you can just be yourself and have time to sort things out for yourself. You can meet people and just have fun while you are young. Who knows, maybe you will meet your true love in the process. However, if you know that you can handle a possible break up with your "first love" then go for it. I am a sucker for love.

Are you in school still? Is there any guy that interests you in your school? Try to branch out and meet new people. See who all is out there before you settle down at such a young age. Put yourself first and make sure that you are happy. It sounds selfish, but in the end it's better for your partner. While you are young put yourself and your friends above any guy.

if you need any more advice respond on here or PM me.

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