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hi ya all
i m a brand new member of this form,and i have never joined any form before,
i m here just b'coz i wana share sum most bitter part of my life and need some suggestionz from u pplz,
i met a gurl 5 years back in 2003, we met online on a chat channel, i didn t see her,, didn t hear her voice,and didn t knew much bout her but i fell in luv wid her,i did each n every thing just to make her happy and relax,i gave her confidence,i gave her all of my devines and i showed that how much i care of her,even after meeting her i didn t but any thing for myself,i didn t ever think bout my self,,forgot every thing and just thought bout her,after 2 years we got engaged with the permission of our families in dec 2005,i was crazy for her,she often told me that i ain t look like another guyz,i don t have any job coz i was studying in the university and my family is well off,so i told her that i don t need to hava job rite now coz dad is supporting me and i m trying my best to full fill ur needs,she had a boyfriend in Mississauga Canada,but she told me that they ar just friendz,he wanted to marry her but she said to me that i love you and i won t marry any1 else and if sum 1 pressurise me,, i ll kill my self but won t marry other 1,the same feelings were build in my heart that i ll sucide but won t leave her at any cost,,all of my family members,, friends and others pplz who know bout me and her offten said that BE CAREFULL,,DON T B MUCH STUPID,BUT I DENIED EVERY 1,COZ I HAD BUILD TRUST ON HER IN MY HEART,i m the man of wordz that s why i was thought that she must be same like me,,but suddenly on 29th march 2007 i got to know that TOMORROW IS HER WEDDING,,i was feeling that i m falling from the highest cliff,,with in a second the whole story of 5 years was running in my eyez,the hugs,,the kisses,,the touch of our bodies,, her tears,,her words that I CAN T LIVE WID OUT U,,ETC ETC,and on the other second i wanted to know that who s the lucky guy and was again in shock that he was the guy from Mississauga Canada,,,,she didn t tell me anything about this senario,,even if she just told me once i could do so many things,,but she didn t ,,any wayz on 30th march 2007 she got married wid him,,and after 2 weeks he went back to Canada,,she left here,,i was almost died,,i didn t eat and sleep for 2 weeks,i was just trying to contact her and she turnd off her cell,,i sent a thousands of sms and she didn t replied,,but when her hubby went back she contact me and say it wasant my fault and i don t wana be wid him i don t like him plz forgive me.,i couldn t do anything for u ,i m sorry and so many excuses,,i said that what if i did same wid ya?what could u do?u have lost ur virginity and each and every thing that a gurl have,,how can u do that wid me?why m i crying,, i didn t lost any thing,,i m still standing,, still loving ya,, still dieing for ya,why don t u come back,, u say that u don t love him so why don t u divorce him?what s the problem in that?and she had just 1 answer that i can t do i can t do,,and after all we met again,,she was crying when she first looked at my face,, coz i got much weak than b4,,my eyez were red and i extanded my smoking than ever b4,,she saw that i can t live more wid out her..and i know that she knew that i won t live long after her,,she spent a time of 10 months wid me and 51 dayz ago she left me for ever,, she has gone to canada,,last time she called me from air port that,,MY LOVE I M LEAVING PLEASE DO CARE OF UR SELF I LOVE YOU,, NEVER TRY TO SUCIDE MAY BE WE LL BE TOGATHER AGAIN,,and whne the pilot announced plz switch off ur cell fones b4 take off she finally kissed me..and then she turnd off the cell.. after 15 minutes,,i saw her plane in the sky going to Canada,, i wanted to cry i wanted to yeil but i culdn t ,it s been almost 2 months, and now i feel that there s sum thing inside me biting me,,eating me i can t sleep more than 3 or 4 hours in a day and some timez i don t sleep for more than 72 hours,,she used to call me after 10 or 12 dayz,, she cries that her husband is not gud,, beats her,,and do u know pplz?i didn t ever shout at her?i don t feel gud,, i wish that i f i cud help her,, can any 1 help me,, how can i get rid of this feelings?i have tried another gurl,, i tried to be wid her,,but i couldn t stay wid her for 2 hour b coz i wanted to run away from that gurl,that was awfull situation for me,, she tried to hold my hand and rejacted,,i don t want any gurl,, i just want my gurl.... plz tell me m i on rite path?what do u think that will GOD help me?

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