Then I found out that someone I'm very fond of (in both a friendship/relationship way, even though I except the latter will be impossible) has moved away like a year ago. Why does everyone feel that the need to protect people is by ignorance? Sure, I know that this person might not have necessarily wanted to keep in contact, but why didn't they just allow me to see her in order to ask? I only found out today by chance, it was just a 'Oh no, she's moved to Cornwall'. Again, this seems so typical of what I'm used to, i.e. people just leaving and having no security because of all the upheaval.

I think Morrissey summed my failed friendships up well: 'I know my luck to well, and I'll probably never see you again'

I just want to tell people about this, but they'll just perceive me as weak if I do  

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'I wanna be like you,doing all thing things you do.  
You haven't got a clue how I try and try each night.'