I don't know why I'm feeling like this. maybe it's just a mood swing because I do have my period. But usually mood swings aren't like this.

I have a few things on my mind. and my computer was pissing me off earlier. But i don't know. I just wanna. I don't know what I want to do. I just want everything to be over. I just want to be happy. I want my boyfriend to be happy. I want the person that hates me not to hate me. I want to be around horses right now to cheer me up. I want to..... I want to be happy. That's all.

and I feel the farthest thing possible from that..... and I don't know what to do. I feel like crying, and punching, and running, and screaming and.....

Most of all I want to talk to my boyfriend.... but i don't think he wants to deal with me right now. But i don't know. He's off doing his own thing.. and I donno. I just..

I donno what to do..

I have school and work tomorrow. what if I'm not better by then. how am I supposed to serve people in fast food like this.

I don't know what to do!

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my computer was pissing me off earlier .

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heheheh! That made me laff. xD

Hope you feel better

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East to the sea:::: West to the land::: Death to the bitch::: who touches my man :::

i know what you are going through and its not fun.

PM me if you want to talk.

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Yes, I am a grammar-Nazi.
BEWARE.

Hope you feel better :)

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it's our light that scares us the most we question who we
are to deserve what we've earned when we let out light shine others do too.

You know, I feel this way a lot of times as well. Sometimes it helps to just lay there and cry when you need to. Hug your pillow, think of the people who care for you... eat chocolate! Listen to music, take a long shower...
Basically, pamper yourself.
You are obviously depressed for a reason. So just calm down and relax until you're absolutely sure you can find the problem and solve it. Because if you're never willing to confront it permanently, you're going to feel like this for a long time.

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Frankly my dear, I don't give a damn.
-Rhett Butler

Have a bath. Watch a comedy. Listen to music. Happy and cheery music. Draw colourful pictures. Use primary colours. Make it pretty. Eat chocolate. Lots & lots. Cookies & Milk - Try that, very tasty. In fact eat, eat and well eat! Have a big pig out session. Food makes you feel woooo sometimes. Forget about everything and free yourself.

Message me. Anytime. If you need me, I am there.

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The worst crime is faking it
-Kurt Cobain.

I say that you should talk to people because, talking and getting things off your chest can really help to relieve the stress that you have, and things like running and writing as well as punching a bag give you an outlet for your sorrow. Just remember that by cutting you are only hurting yourself, you need to see yourself from others eyes, look at what others would think, and by that I don't mean teasing, I mean look at how much it would hurt family and friends to know that you are doing this as opposed to talking to them and letting them know that you need/want help.

You can talk to me or someone else on here, or see a friend or family member for assistance. Just know that you aren't alone in your pain. Lastly i'd be more worried about my own well being, then what customers might think. Anyway, do your best to think of something else besides self harm.

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You know you love her when you see the world in her and you
see her everywhere in the world. I love you sweetheart