It's not on purpose....I do force myself to eat at least once a day, and I've only been drinking water.  at most, I get 300 calories a day(if you include the fat).

I don't get it, not that I ever really have, now that I realize I have one.

it's like, I see food, I want it...and then think "what for?  well, I'm hungry".  then I think "too bad", and just go back up and write on my story I'm usually working on.

If I start losing too much weight(I've already lost 4 lbs in a week.), I may just go to an inpatient thing(if it gets that serious.

my question:

how the hell does an eating disorder pop up, when I am naturally a healthy eater at 6 small meals a day(usually vegetables and fruit for four meals, protein and grains for 2, all in sensible amounts)?

maybe someone might know the theory on it, or at least a link.  I'm not really sure what to look for on the net, other that eating disorders, which usually pops up treatment facilitties than explanations.

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Love is not mine to have, nor to be shared with me...
May I find love in the next life...

It's about gaining control in a life where you feel little control.

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We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year.

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You dont have an eating disorder if this has been going on for a week. Sometimes our desire to eat does up and down, its not a huge deal.

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haha, it's the first time it's ever been down and I feel somewhat healthy.  usually, the only time I don't eat much is when I'm throwing up(even then, I force a hot pocket...even though I know the result...)

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Love is not mine to have, nor to be shared with me...
May I find love in the next life...

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It isn't about food.  

 
It's about gaining control in a life where you feel little control.

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hmm, wow.  I never saw it that way.  I guess if it gets bad, I know what is doing it.  I'm going down to go stare at the food cabinet again.  I may not want to, but I may just come up with something just in case.

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Love is not mine to have, nor to be shared with me...
May I find love in the next life...

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I do force myself to eat at least once a day, and I've only been drinking water.  at most, I get 300 calories a day
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There's your problem. You need regular meals to keep your body on a constant cycle or burning. 300 calories is awful. Less than 1000 is starvation, a regular diet should be between 2000 and 2200 to keep the body going.

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To be a man you must have honor.
Honor and a penis.