The therapy that is. Tomorrow I'm going in for some hardcore nutpunch therapy. Should be fun shouldn't it? It is possible that I'm an incurable? Does western medicine have what it takes to beat my <insert dysfunction here>? Maybe my condition is not that serious, maybe it's only some low-key teenage angst. I mean, talk to any teenager and won't they tell you about how they sometimes feel like a freak?
Talk to any teenager, wouldn't most say that they hate being at home with their parents because all they do is hold them back? I feel that my issues are more intense than those of other people's, I feel like im an exception. Dosen't everyone feel that way about their problems though?
Do you ever hear someone depressed go "Oh yeah, my problems are very regular... total joke... everyone's got em". Probably friggen not.
For me, it's all expectations. I feel like my first therapist misdiagnosed me! I believe that I have a more serious disorder than the one that I have. I feel like, although I tried I wasn't totally honest and clear to him. How perfect can communication be though? There is always some slip ups when you talk to someone about heavy stuff.
It could also be a self esteem issue that makes me think that I have something more serious than what I have. Self esteem issues are common in what I was diagnosed with, so wouldn't it make sense that I would think that I have something mor3 serious than I have?
I have social anxiety disorder... or the SAD as some like to put it.
Back to expectations though, it's that I demand my own unique brand of excellence in everything that I do and everything that happens. Success is my only option, failure's not.
WoooWooWoooWOoooot
I'm a natural born drawer, I've learned how to draw very respectable things through extreme amounts of trial and error. I think i'm going to start with tutorials and hone my skills. I also want to be a writer. How is my writing? Keep in mind im pulling all of this straight out of my ass with no revision whatsoever.
Perhaps (Although it pisses me off so much when people tell me they have it just for "lolz") I have ADD?
It would make sense, many of my teachers have inquired whether or not I am either:
1) A drug addict
2) Mentally abnormal
Its always fun to respond with "yes" to both