I pay 450 for rent, and then the rest pays for classes(just barely).  I ask for one month to help pay for my class trip to an asian country.  my father says money is too tight.  I finally pay for it(just barely).

my step brother works, doesn't do any house chores, goes out with friends every week, and buys a ton of fancy and expensive stuff.  how much into rent does he pay? zero.

anyone see the unfairness yet?

I can't really afford to live on my own(given my disability check isn't that much, and the state won't let me work). I am clothed in pants and raggy shirts, and even learned to sew, since I can't really realistically afford new clothes.

I all but stopped doing house chores because I feel cheated.  I was even moved out of my bedroom into the guest room(which is a fraction of the size of my original bedroom) because my dad wanted his own bedroom and office connected into one room.  he never sleeps in it, he sleeps in his "fiances" room(yeah, wtf is up?).  

I am in a small ass room, and I'm claustrophobic.  I go into a panic attack because I can't breath because of it.  all because " 'she' wants her space".  wtf! they're getting married!!!  what about my needs? what about my comfort?!

no use complaining, because I'm stuck here.  I try reasoning with them, but they won't hear it.  

I just want to die and get this over with.  I want to wake up and wish this was a dream.  but in reality, I'm just being used.  I don't even drive to school. I have to walk for 30-45 minutes to the us stop, and ride another 30 minutes to get to the school. everyone else drives to where they want to go...and if I ask for a ride, it's iffy if I can get a ride....

my life sucks and I hate it.

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Love is not mine to have, nor to be shared with me...
May I find love in the next life...