I have no idea what I'm trying to say, and reading through other posts on this forum I feel like a right bitch because all the other posts are about abusive boyfriends, parents divorcing; serious stuff, and mine is about my petty thoughts.

I feel sick.

Take care.

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it's broken beyond repair. it's in a million little pieces.

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It's just, we're really close friends, but so are they, and I know they'll want to hang out as all three of us but even before they were going out I even felt like I was intruding the whole time, and to be honest, I don't think I'll be able to be comfortable with them, and I don't know why.

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Well, firstly, do you know this guy as well as she does? If not, perhaps your worries and fears are down to not knowing him as well as she does. As you hang out with him more often, you'll get to know him more and (hopefully), given time, you'll feel much more comfortable around him. I understand your worries and fears completely, because I've been in similar situations myself, but give it a go. You might be comfortable with them, you might not, but you won't actually know unless you give it a go, right? Are you perhaps worried that you and your best friend are going to lose something? Sometimes, if you have a worry like that, you can also find yourself worrying about other things - like how comfortable you'll feel around them both when you're all together. What I would suggest is that you maybe try having a quick word with your best friend. Explain your worries and your fears - remind her that you love her dearly as a friend and don't want to lose her - but explain your worries too. There's no shame in what you're feeling, truly, and you CAN chat to your friend about this. That's the beauty of friendships - you can go to eachother with things and work through it. If he's currently acting like an arse with you, then tell your friend how he's making you feel. It's fantastic that your friend has found someone, but in the same breath, if you have to spend time with them both, then you do NOT deserve bad treatment. Perhaps your friend could have a word with him on your behalf? And, if it really isn't working out, then maybe you're just going to have to get used to sharing her. Seeing her when you can if he's not around, and working through it that way.

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Also, this is another thing; she comes to me for romance advice, but I still have no idea why. I'm 15 (please don't now think I'm an immature idiot) and have not yet had a relationship, excluding one when I was 8, which quite clearly doesn't count. The thing is it's really starting to get to me, I know it shouldn't because I am only 15, I've got ages, but I just feel like I'm missing something.

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Well, firstly, as for her coming to you for romance advice - it's probably because you're close friends! I completely understand how frustrating it can be when you're not had a relationship yourself, but I honestly think she's just coming to you because you're her friend. My friend's come to me all the time for relationship advice, even though I'm not in a relationship myself. And, as for you not being in a relationship, truly, try not to worry about it. You WILL find someone eventually - we all experience relationships - but it's going to take some time. I find that, sometimes, the most meaningful relationships happen by chance and someone comes along when we're least expecting it. Your time will come, really it will, just hold out, yeah? I know it can feel lonely, frustrating, like you're missing something... but a relationship isn't everything. Focus on living and enjoying your life, you never know what's coming next.

As for that guy you think you're in love with and the whole mix up of who likes who in the cast. Well, there's not actually much I can say about that. You know how you feel regardless of what other people might be saying, so if I were you, I'd just ignore all this other stuff going on. I mean, at the end of the day, is it really all that important? Who likes who and whatnot? And, for the friend you used to share things with, well, I'm really sorry that she's not being so open with you anymore. I understand how painful it can be when you drift away from friends and when you begin to realise that you just aren't as close anymore. There are really only two things I think you can do in this situation, to be honest. You can try talking to her and try getting back to being as close as you once were, or you can accept that as people grow up they do sometimes grow apart. It's up to you, of course. It can be really hurtful accepting that you've drifted apart from a friend, but, unfortunately, it's part of life and it's part of growing up.

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I generally get on OK with people, but I never just "click" with anyone like my friends do, and at some point, usually before I know them really really well, I know they really dislike me. After a long time of this happening, the inevitable happens that I start to question why this is, I've got to haven't I? There's got to be a reason! It's also getting me really paranoid, especially now that my friend's going out with someone she's only known for a month, why does that not happen to me? The only people that ever like me are actually people on here; 3 people, but when I start to know them better, it just gets weird and we just grow apart...

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Sometimes it just takes people longer to connect with people and to make friends. I rarely just "click" with people either, but I have got a group of really close friends - close because we've gotten to know eachother over a number of years and our bond has really been made into something. There's nothing wrong with you, I absolutely promise you that, you just sound like the type of person who can take a little longer to make friends. The person with 3 or 4 close friends is happier and less lonely than the person with 20 random friends, I reckon. Good friendships aren't just measured by how you immediately "click" with someone - they're something that develop over time. You mentioned that you HAVE good friends where you are now, so take comfort in that, and if you want to meet more friends then there are always social clubs you could try joining, or a part time job to meet new people... stuff like that.

Really though, it sounds to me that you're somewhat hard on yourself a lot of the time. Try to take it easy, enjoy life, wait for certain things (like relationships) to come your way. And if you're in need of friendships then go out there and seek them, yeah? We're all only here for such a short while - embrace it all. I understand that you're having a difficult time with some people in your life, and if that's the case, then there's absolutely nothing wrong with just having a quiet word with them about it.

Take care of yourself. PM me absolutely anytime, if you need any further help or if you want to correct me on anything I might have misunderstood. :]

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it's broken beyond repair. it's in a million little pieces.

I bet I'm going to look back at this in a few months and think I was an idiot to be so upset, it's just been a really hectic few months for me, and I don't know how much longer I can cope, but this really has helped.

Thank you.