What the fuck what the fuck what the fuck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARRRGHH  why do I do these things?

I feel like having a passion in life would help, and I've been looking towards spiritual guidance... to help me like be happier and more functional but it always feels like im doing it wrong and reverting to my old ways.. Im afraid of doing more good than bad using these techniques :(

So far mostly good results have come from them so I guess its good just working a bit slow... but I dont want to go back and fuck it allup

OH and im substance dependant and I waste alot of money because it seems like I don't give a shit about it especially when working like this

OH and why can't I handle this little bit of work without going nuts? Imagine how I'll act when shita ctually becomes difficult inlife. I am SO UNPREPRARED.

I've been skipping so much school wow was that dumb

Oh im wasting my fucking time on these forums... and I got dumped by the most undateable people... what does tha tmake me?

And I hate how I get this weird satisfied feeling whenever alot of people view and comment on my posts

Why am I such a fagtard? Why is like im everything bad thing a person ca be rolled into one and served fresh to go? ARRGGHH!!!

Why am I such a drama queen?

Who knows I hate myself

Nice im done ty