It sucks because everyday I think about friends and girls, and I don't have any of either. I just can't get it right. Maybe I'm just not normal or something. I've been trying to figure out what is wrong with me specifically for the longest. Everyone around me always seems happily involved in relationships with people. Friends, love, you name it. But me, no. I'm a chronic loner. So I figure It must be me that has got the problem. Something is wrong with me. But when I try and step out and be different and try different things, I always get the results of awkward and or ruined, meaning I  fail.

I don't know what people think when they look at me. For the longest I've been trying to go off of comments. That doesn't work out very well. I can't know what people think of me based off their comments, because everyones comments about me are different.

I've been writing about being alone without relationships and hopelessly awkward for the longest. Apparently I can't fix my problem because If I've been trying to for years and I still haven't then maybe it's hopeless. Sometimes I try and get used to the idea that being alone is not a bad thing. For a moment I'm content, but then at the end of the day I realize I need other people too. Being so alone tears me apart on the inside. It almost feels like I'm stuck in a sort of hell. Like I'm being punished. Like the irony of me chasing after happiness all my life is that I will never be happy.

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There's no present. There's only the immediate future and the recent past.
 - George Carlin

go to a doctor. if its not that, just be yourself in social situation. you'll have friends in no time. Go to social events or do volunteer work in the community, a great way to meet new people. join clubs

my golden rule when it comes to getting a gf, I learned this the hard way. Learn to be single first. Don't look for a gf. It is supposed to just happen. If u look to hard, you end up feeling something you shouldn't be feeling at the this time. You fall to quickly or for the wrong person because you dont bother to get to know someone well enough.

be best friends first.

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PotterishDancer is my LW Valentine! ; )

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do you suffer from depression? it could be that.  

go to a doctor. if its not that, just be yourself in social situation. you'll have friends in no time. Go to social events or do volunteer work in the community, a great way to meet new people. join clubs

my golden rule when it comes to getting a gf, I learned this the hard way. Learn to be single first. Don't look for a gf. It is supposed to just happen. If u look to hard, you end up feeling something you shouldn't be feeling at the this time. You fall to quickly or for the wrong person because you dont bother to get to know someone well enough.

be best friends first.

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I guess I suffer from depression because of the fact that I have no friends or talk to no girls. The thing is, I know how, and I'm actually pretty good at forming relationships with people. I guess I just don't chase anything. I don't bother to make friends when I can easily do it. I don't talk to the girls I think are pretty but I have before. I don't feel like I should have to try anymore. If that makes sense. Maybe I'm antisocial and not aware. That's the worst huh. Because I purposefully choose not to go after something I want so badly because I don't care. It's hard to explain.

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There's no present. There's only the immediate future and the recent past.
 - George Carlin