My "friends" treat me like shit, well, one does. He's pretty much been a bully to me ever since I've known him. He's a hypocritical manipulative asshole. Always making me do shit all the time. Freshmen year, he dared me to run out in the middle of a pep rally and act retarded. I said no, so he takes my backpack and throws it into a creek (not joking). In ceramics class, he'll take clay and smear it all over my sweatshirt. He calls me fat ass, bitch, Frankenstein (cause i have no personality), and the list goes on. If I do ANYTHING to him (even if it's as small as throwing an ice cube at him), he'll punch the shit out of me on my arm or do something worse. He's rubbed his naked asshole into my face (yeah, it's a little funny but not really for me). I've been his little bitch for years now and I'm sick of him. I would fucking punch him in the face till his nose breaks if I knew I could fight him (he's definitely way stronger than me). I'm always afraid he will beat me up or something if I try and not be his friend. Everyone who has met him says that he is a complete dick to me. I don't know what to do anymore. I fucking hate him. I don't know if I should be mad at him for doing shit tome or mad at myself for not sticking up for myself. Fuck.

I want to break free. I feel like a pussy saying that but  he's definitely caused me some serious problems. I'm way less social and I have a lot of depression. (it might not be because of him but I'm just guessing)

It's not just my friend either. It's me. I'm such a fucking pussy about everything. In my head I always feel like fighting and being aggressive but I can't bring myself to actually do it.

Does anyone have any tips they could give me to help me be more assertive and confident (and help with my situation)?  

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You've poisoned all your children, to camouflage your scars.

EDIT: im not suggesting that you threaten anyone with it, or carry it around with you in public, either, just buy one to own it.

Post edited at 10:51 pm on Mar. 11, 2008 by Chevy Jackson

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buy a gun. even if its not loaded, it's like a second cock, and it's better than steroids for giving you muscles in a hurry.

EDIT: im not suggesting that you threaten anyone with it, or carry it around with you in public, either, just buy one to own it.

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I hate guns. They kill. I don't want to kill people. And I would rather learn how to fight.

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You've poisoned all your children, to camouflage your scars.

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Quote: from Chevy Jackson at 10:50 pm on Mar. 11, 2008

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buy a gun. even if its not loaded, it's like a second cock, and it's better than steroids for giving you muscles in a hurry.  

 EDIT: im not suggesting that you threaten anyone with it, or carry it around with you in public, either, just buy one to own it.

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I hate guns. They kill. I don't want to kill people. And I would rather learn how to fight.

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no guns dont kill people, people kill people with guns. but maybe a gun isnt for you.

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You need to learn and stick up for yourself or you're going to be living a miserable life.

Post edited at 11:05 pm on Mar. 11, 2008 by Violently Happy

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Give a man a fire, and he is warm for a day.
Set a man on fire, and he is warm for the rest of his life.

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My "friends" treat me like shit, well, one does.
 

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After the first paragraph, i felt sorr for you, then i read the first line of the second paragraph.

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