And Catherine, Jesus, Catherine, I saw her Saturday night and i got kicked out of the nightclub for being too drunk, she was the only girl i ever connected with, the only person who ever made me happy about myself, and there's no chance of me even talking to her, cos she wont like me now, I'm not the confident, spontaneous, easy going guy I was when she did meet me last summer. She isn't amazingly good looking, i wouldn't notice her if i didn't know her, shes small and chubby, and yet what some of the girls look like that Ive been with, and yet the one girl i want... I'm still in love with her, 10 months on since we talked, and Ive thought about her everyday since I met her last April.

I cant cope.

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Punctured bicycle on a hillside, desolate,
Could nature make a man of me yet?