he has been dead all day, but i did not want to look at him and admit it.

i feel like crap. he was so sweet! but he was sick, and suffering.  it made me sad, but ina way i wanted it to be over... and that is just awful!

my other guinea pig died of what seems to be the same sickness about a month or two ago. i cried, but not after she died. it just made me sad to see her suffering, and what could i do?

i want to be sad, but i don't know. please do not reply telling me that it was just a dumb animal. that is inconsiderate, rude, and dumb. animals have feelings.

i don't really know what i need... i just want to feel something, to know where to go now... to feel as though... i don't know...