shit where to start i've been clean for four days
and it sucks
i don't like it one bit
and i think that is the reason why i've been in such a bad mood lately
i wish i had something more to live for
i am but half the person i want to be
my problem is pretty fucking simple
it's not that i do drugs
it's that i don't feel the need to stop
the want to stop
more than one person has said to me that afterwards you just feel like shit
and that you would soon get sick of it
that's not the case for me
after i do whatever i do
after whatever it is wears off
i don't feel like shit
i just sit and think about how much fun i just had
and i want to do it again
like it's not that i feel the need to do shit because being sober isn't fun
because just tonight alone is proof that i can have fun unintoxicate
it's just the feeling that it brings
bonds are meant to be built
ties are meant to be cut
limits are meant to be broken
that's how i see a lot of things
like bonds with the people you care for are meant to be built and made stronger
ties with what you disprove of are meant to be cut
and the limits that people and the world set upon you are meant to be broken
i honestly don't know what's going on anymore now
i would just like for people to be more straightforward
i mean if i can do it
than you can too
if you don't like something say it
if you want something take it
just speak your mind
at least then there is less confusion
and no miscommunication
ah
whatever
fuck it
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whats understood aint gotta be explain
but you dont understand me so let me explain
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