In July of 06 i started a new job, i was on a year off and i had year until i started college. So while i was at this new job i made new friends, trouble was that they were heavy drug users, mainly coke and ecstasy. Before i met them, i never would've dreamed that i'd start using.

I done my first e in January of 07, i loved it, i just felt so comfortable chatting away to my new friends about who knows what.....

My girlfriend started to notice a change in me, when she confronted me, i simply told her to f@#k off, and lied and told her i never even loved her. It was the first time i've ever made anybody cry, and i was pleased with myself.

Every weekend or second weekend of last year i could not go out to a club without doing lines or e's.
I started off doing just one pill at a time, pretty soon i was doing up to ten a night.

I lost all my old friends, my best friend told me he never wants to hear from me again.

But at the beginning of this month i decided now was the time for change, so i have given up alcohol, e and coke. I have been sober for 3 weeks now, but i feel like shit. That is being honest, i can't get any joy from anything anymore. When i listen to a song that may reference drugs, i shudder. And most of my favourite films include drug use, i just don't feel the same about anything anymore.

I have decided o stop talking to/hanging with the guys from work, but i don't know if this is the best option, because then i'll be left with no friends at all.

I know i only have myself to blame, but that doesn't stop me from feeling depressed. I was wondering if i should join an addiction help group, but my will power has been strong for the past few weeks i don't know if i need external help.

Any thoughts on the matter?

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I don't know if you'd be able to get back together with your friends, short of falling to your knees and shouting "I've changed!"

This forum is a little inactive at the moment, you should repost it in a few hours to get a better response.

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