you should really try letting someone know about your feelings though, perhaps you'll even find someone who understands.

besides, the idea that someone's better than you is completely redundant. sure, some people know how to do certain things that you may not know, but this doesn't mean they're better than you. never doubt your abilities and always have confidence.

going back to your old ways is simple, you just need to put in the effort.

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Don't expect it to happen spontaneously.

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Also, try getting support from friends, you've already mentioned that you have them, so put 'em to good use!

i wish you the best of luck, and know that i understand, for i have been through the same situation.

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Ohhh, my, my. Oh, hell, yes.