10/10 cold and pricklies

Post edited at 6:21 am on Dec. 30, 2007 by hel

this'll be yet another nye spent alone passed out under my desk. i need a hug

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I dont know what id rate myself, so maybe you could help me rate it;

if you feel like reading :/

I have lost everything important to me, and I can't stop crying...thank you whether or not you respond...

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I am so lonely, and I hate myself. Sometimes I wish it was all over. I don't have many friends, and the ones I do have don't understand me. I am really depressed, I have been for a while, but nobody seems to care. I am living a double life, no one knows who I really am. I use sarcasm to hide my true pain. I push away, when that's really that's my way of asking you to try harder. I act like I don't care, when I do, I just don't know how to express it. I am so complicated, and I think about and question the world way too much. I want to change the world one day, but I am so shy that no one knows I exist. I just want to grow up. I am overwhelmed with everything about the end of high school. I cry a lot. I feel like no one understands me, and they think I am weird. I know  that some of the weirdest and most socially awkward people in high school turn out to be the ones that make a difference, but I am having a hard time getting through it. I write too much. Every time I close my eyes I picture a warm hug, but then I open them and all I feel is cold loneliness. I feel a lot of pain. Sleep is where I am happiest. I have self diagnosed myself as a tragic, genius, crazy person. My teacher taught me that sometimes people are too smart that they can't bare to live in our physical world. Sometimes I feel like that, that there is too much going on inside of my head that I can't understand.  

I need someone to love me, and I could also use a hug.

Someone please pm me i need to talk to someone

9/10    

Post edited at 3:48 pm on Feb. 21, 2008 by sosupkthnx

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