It hurts soo much for me to reminisce about the past..good and bad memories, but I've got this mind that remembers little moments- every details, exact conversations....I just get into this depressive state when thinking about the past in general- middle school/high school years...about friends that I no longer keep in touch with, about things we did, about classes long gone and what has led me up to this point. I didn't even have a bad past...quite the opposite...I think that's why it hurts so much. Concentrate on the future...